To my Teachers

to my teachers that got caught up wit this bullshit, my heart goes out to you
especially if you are a good one, and did all you knew to do
using the education that you went to school for, just to use those skills to teach others
most times we saw you more than we saw our fathers and mothers
if it was not for you there would not be those dimwits that made those laws
there would not be the lawmakers, and money makers and those others that seem to hide their flaws
you taught us how to talk and discipline when our parents almost raised their hands as to say  thevy give  up
i love yhall for keeping it real with me when i stopped givn a fuck
 you told me the truth about life when i gave up on life, but you did what you do
you put so many things into perspective, i thank yhall and i have to say keep your heads up, because you deserve so much better, you truly do...

xpresurself

lov'n the life....

i love my life, the life i live, and i plan to live the life i love
staying away from those that really do not give a damn about my plans and what i am really made of
i am a lover of people now though in the past, i really could care less about people in general,
but now i pray for individuals @ random praying for their salvation and hope they are able to live their life bountiful
i have gotten to the point where my concern is making sure people these days are laughing or smiling
i want to get past these hard times which are causing so many into this fad of wilding
we are an expressive people, and we have a lot on our minds
god has given us gifts to express ourselves, and to show them off, and this is the perfect time
some people sing themselves happy,  dance themselves silly, and just need a way to speak out
some need a way to talk about what is on their hearts, and vent out loud
but we are too worried about what the judgmental bastards have to say
Jesus had to deal with them just the same, and we will in the same way
if they will agree with what/ how we feel or deal with things
we must seek the face of god and be able to accept all things
this is my line of defense against these gloomy days, as well as the haters that be
i am loving my life, the life i live, i plan to live this life i love, and you are welcome to live it with me

Come on now people.....

This is a day where it does not matter where you are, who you are with, and what you are intending to do
There will always be these women with a bad build, and horrible wig, and a BAD ATTITUDE
it seems like every song about independent ladies is pointed towards them as if the song fits
when they know damn well, they never had shit, never did shit, and for the most part, really ain't about shit
I have spoke with, and identified with real women that have some things in their past to talk about
When your definition of struggle is having a house full of kids, and waiting on THOSE nothing ass niggas to  bail your nothing ass out
I wish this would stop, and the real ladies show these other women what it means to go through a hard time
I am not captain save a hoe, nor the dude next door to share with you everything that is mine.
what you need is a clue of what it means to actually work for a living and buy your own stuff
and not counting on another person to take care of you, as if your contribution to the relationship is enough
Any woman can open her legs, and yes women back in the day had a lot more respect for who they are
They did not just let any random prick, prick them, they would actually set the bar
Men would have to climb the top tree, to learn how you are suppose to lady
Love does not come from good sex, nor what a man could do for you, or not being accustom to having a house full of babies
NOW granted, I am a firm believer of this ladies, us nothing ass men have totally screwed it up for the good dudes
We have manipulated many things, and made you feel cheap, and causing you to do a lot of things that you do.
We are to blame for a lot of things, because we were not the men we should have been
But women, how about i ask if you would just try this again.
Us men have a lot of making up to do, because of how royally messed up we have become
But God made you women emotional creatures, he did not make you to be dumb.
This world was suppose to be managed by us, and i have seen you step up and take control
Well, how about we ALL step up, and learn our own role
I love you ladies, and do not worry, the men will get it in the end
God Will not hold you accountable for the role he gave us men
So once again, go and talk to Great grandmother, and learn how to become virtual again
Stop settling for bullshit than comes from us dudes, and stop surviving and living according to your past pain

until we are thankful to see tomorrow...

I am finally getting out of my shy stage,
 and doing what i want to do
I finally claimed this day, and it was a long time coming,
 but i did tell the truth
I know she probably thinks i am a dork or something,
 but it is all good and it is what it is
It has been on my heart for a while,
and i am glad i did what i did
i was probably not taken seriously,
 and that is fine with me
until we are thankful to see tomorrow, in Jesus' name,
 i pray tomorrow we are allowed to see....
maybe paths will cross, and maybe paths will go
in another direction
maybe paths will intersect at different times,
maybe God has finalized your destination
well, i put it like this, where ever you end  up,
just pray God has his hand in it midst
In Jesus' name, walk in the direction of love,
 as long as it is where the face of God is...
take the words for what it is worth,
and do not just blow them off
take the words for what they are worth,
take them in so they will not get lost...
one day God will place us all at a place where he wants us to be,
 without pain and sorrow
Today has enough worries in itself, so be encouraged,
until we are thankful to see tomorrow
"xpressURself"

"Sunday"

The day of the Lord, the day chosen by man as being the Sabbath day, when we should all get refreshed
The day where God should be praised, and the day when men should rest
After a long week of work, partying, and acting a fool, this day many say we should go dressed in our best
Where the holier than “THOU” saints scare the real sinners away, because their facials, being so grotesque.
Well, my Bible teaches that anyone that comes is welcome into the house of the Lord
But, if a woman comes in with pants, and a man in his work clothes on a Sunday, they are not welcome in, regardless of what you have endured
It makes you wonder if the purpose of church is to complete the party from the night before,
Well all I can say is do what YOU do, because that ain’t what I am gonna do, because my God deserves so much more
The real Christian is the one that has no problem with their past being a testimony to others,
Nnnaaaawww, but these so called saints, and hypocrites would prefer to spend their worship experience down playing my sisters and brothers
I will not get on the Preachers and Deacons, that is up to God to have their dirt uncovered
They have strict instructions in the Bible, on their conduct, and lifestyles, and how they should be with one another
My Sundays are not what they use to be, I do not feel the same sense of urgency to give our lives to Christ.
We are not as into serving one another any more, we tend to worry more about our own life
Let’s bring the old school back into church, and get away from the Sunday Hype
My Sunday’s seem to be more routine, ready to get in and get out and go on with my life
So to the real children of God, that are actually concerned about the well being of women and men
There are entirely too many folk kissing up to god, thinking this is how they will get in.
So to raise awareness of the rising issue of people staying outside of the building, because of the evil that is within
God described our bodies as holy temples; the church is more of a tent of meeting for the sick in spirit can go in
It is not about you nor me, but it is about Jesus Christ, and all that there is to be about his life
He died for us so that we can be free from the evil one, let’s start filling the church up tight
Let the Preacher, preach, and the Deacons teach, while the choir sing those Zion songs, singing about all of the hype.
Sunday is coming around again, so let’s get in the place, and let’s get together and do praise and worship right…
-”xpressURself”

Probably the wrong dude

Hello, how are you, no mean really how do you do?

I feel a bit blessed to be able to hold a conversation with you.

I do not want to come across as a goof, or a fool

But the truth of the matter is I have been watching you from across the room

I thought it was pretty interesting how you kinda moved from 1 chair to the next, dude to dude

You did that so smooth like the niggas do it, I thought that was rather smooth

You have placed a thought in my head, and gave me a thought or two

You have brought light to why some men do the things we do

I will give you the fact that most of us are dogs, and can be a bit crude

But a lot of you ladies can be just flat out rude

You left a good guy, showing you respect, he was a gentleman,  I mean a real good dude

Then you walked to the pimp of the club, overly cologne  up with his suit and matching shoes

I am taking it that his rap was probably as wack as the way he moves

You had that look on your face the whole time,  and again I saw you move

Now mind you, you haven’t bought a drink all night, and you cute and all but not all that, but it is all cool

Now, I did not stop  you to dawg you, but I did to see if I could learn a little about you.

You fine, and sexy, big bootey for weeks, chilling in the club doing what you do

NOW, the dude you are about to leave with, I hope he is what you were looking for, Boo.

That chik you were talking shit about with her face all bruised, the dude you leaving with, is her ex-dude

You wanted to hook up with him I guess because he looked like he can protect you

But you passed up the dude that will do a better job at taking care of you, but that is on you

“xpressURself”

my time...... comes around

That is exactly what i saw, but i really was not sure if she was feeling me at all
i stayed sitting on that couch in the back, before i would have stand up; backk to the wall
i could stand me passing her up, letting my homeboy spit a little game
I mean, where would that leave me, how would I recover from my own shame
EASILY, just sit back and let time take its course with my eyes open wide
She kept looking at me, i went ahead and sat on the couch on the other side
Why am i running from this chic, well i wasn't, i was simply in my own zone
not wanting to deal with a rap, swift lies, and drama, i just wanted to be left alone
if we were meant to be cool, or a couple, or just people that we saw around
things will be as they may, this truth i found the hard way, as i was lifting my life off the ground
you see I was deallig with an issue, that is really no ones business, except the person or people i invite in
if you are not brought to my circle, then dammit, get in where you fit in
i do what i do, because i am just who i am
i can not be judged because of my actions or words, just get thou away from me mayne, DAMN
Contrary to popular belief, i do not need a hook up, i know who i want to bring in to my camp
If it is you, you will know, and i send that message with a $10 stamp.
My time will be, whenever it comes around, and you may or you may not know
my business is my business my life is my life, it is not meant to be a show
My time will be, whenever it comes around, i will know when i know
But as for now, i am gonna do me, whatever that is, after my re-programming, then i will be ready to go
and TRUST ME, if it is meant to be, you will be the first to know....