The Pain Of A Bad Relationship

I can not blame no one but myself, I allowed myself to be owned
I did cause some of the insecurities, but her silliness became too much to control
If I was trying to meditate, or write, or just rest to clear my head
she would make noise, walk a little harder, sing heartache songs, and other games to try to get to my head.
She fed off of drama, bullshit, and such...
but the fact of the matter is, she started to become a bit too much
it was only her opinion that mattered, and everyone else had no say
the best way to stop her from talking is if you gave in and just said ok......
well, all I can say is, for the first time i can truly say she won
I did not mind being the bad guy/ punk ass, because being with her was just no fun
My number one fear at one point was, being lonely
but i would prefer to be alone then to feel like someone is trying to own me
niggas and flies, niggas and flies, both i do despise
but the more i hang around  THIS nigga, the more i appreciate flies......
"xpressurself"

*****SMDH**********

If a man makes an attempt to actually talk and be honest with you
What do you think the smart thing would be to do
Not only will it help you to understand this fool
But it will also show you that this man is trying to show realness towards you
SO WHAT he has a past, you probably did some phuk’d up things to
So instead you make him the “PERSON” from your past; now YOU tell me who is the fool
This dude from your past was the outer cover of your dreams, and appeared to be so true
He gave you money, good sex, and the conversation was great and did almost everything you wanted him to
While inside of the book of that perfect cover, he made you feel like a bigger fool
The guy you have now opens up with a past, and he understands his past is not cool
He even tried covering up some things that happened way before he knew you
And you claim that you pray about things, but ye of little faith,
when will this cycle end for you, you damn fool
TO BE CONTINUED…………. “xpressurself”