one word..... First Love

I have seen your works and kindly deeds
you have been there for others that were in need
You have suffered with out murmur, and toiled through the pain
you have held in your tears, even while standing in the rain
there is nothing i have bad to say about you
most of your life, your choices have been good, and you have consistently stood true
a good servant in church and your honesty is commendable
for the most part, it is you that has been most dependable
you have angered without sin, but did not let the sun come up on your wrath
you  have  given  the  last  that  you've  had
your spouse is happy with you, though at times you have gotten on her nerves
I am willing to give you everything you deserve
BUT, there is one thing i hold against you, one thing i have concern of
You have forgotten about your 1st true love

But i have continued to love you through all that i have seen

through all that i have been through, both good and obscene

even when i have lost all that i had, and had nothing to show

you told me you were there, i know, i know

from woman to woman, from place to place

i know and understand i have shown you disgrace

i mean, i would lift prayers up to you  both day and morn

I would ask you continually to to allow me to grieve from being scorned

Even when my so-called hypocritical brothers in Christ pushed me aside 

I yet turned to you, when my so called friends took me for a ride

What else was i suppose to do, 

what do  you mean I have forgotten about you, 

take note to how far you have fallen, and where you are in life

remember how i removed you from all of your strife

You have forgotten what you were doing when you days were coming together

how much you would so desire me, and wanting to be where i was, no matter the weather

a great servant of your peers, and how your heart was so clear

all else came second to what you desired to hear

you did not bother about what others said concerning your glare

But, to be in my house, in my presence, you would be there

There is one thing you have forgotten about, that you no longer think of

that one word involves me, you have forgotten your first TRUE LOVE
"xpressurself"

Again I Rise

through all of the issues that have crossed my eyes
the lower I fell, as damaged as i was inside
from the blood of Christ, God said again I rise

All of the cash that was blown, and did not realize
to the women that i ended up liking and despised
HE continually lifts, and again i rise

i have done some horrible things, told many lies
standing in the middle of the tears from my own eyes
once again i stood strong, once again i rise

Even when i gave up on myself, and the blame was all mine
feeling sorry for my own disgust, i would still be given the same reply
stand up, and stand still, HE said HE would remain with me always.
and once again I rise

I am looking for her

it is awesome to me when i see you

made up

dressed up

like a breath of fresh air

the tone of your voice

your raw, stark beauty

the drag and texture of your hair

that HUGE smile

the laughter from your belly

the type of clothes you wear

the hidden phenomenom of love

from your heart

the way you show that you care

your body so sensitive

to each and every touch

when touched here and there

that ancient structure of your face

damn near built to perfection

and atitude to match,

ass so fat, no nonsense

so easy to get caught in a stare

promises she will never get caught up

will never cheat, will be of no drama

will never get caught up with the glare

thats cool

thats loyal

thats fair

.......................................

its lunchtime, i turned the flashlight off

i will search a little more later

she's out there........................

somewhere.....

"xpressurself"

She Smiled at Me........ ( look into this one)

She smiled at me.....
i caught her, intrigued as she pranced around so free
and in the midst of her dancing she smiled at me

she saw things that no one else could see
though so many was looking as she glided with glee

with the face from creation of perfect divinity
i watched her in awe with such serenity

She knew she would not be able to choreograph the whole piece
but she pushed on like a soldier, with the heart of a  beast

Her final outcome was inevitable, and she appeared to be so free
to dance as she pleased, but in mid movement she looked up and smiled at me

What was I to do , but smile back with peace
and the tone in my movements cried to be released

but i held back, for i knew the reality of the scene
as the machines were turned off, and her heart stopped pumping,

her eyes continued dancing, and prancing through this scene
and before long i could not hold it anymore and i released
her eyes closed, so peacefully, yet her entire face continued smiling at me............
"xpressurself"

Naw.. We Good... ********^^^^^^^^**********

We have a battle inside of me, and only one of me can actually contain it
We have our moments being upset at me, and we purposely intensely refrain
Our days are filled with anger, happiness, and rebelliousness and we think we actually like it
our business is my business, and if we are feeling a certain way, then I surely will not fight it

not truly people persons, but we will give the shirt off of my back
you will never know what will come out of my mouth, nor do you know the impact

just like everyone else, we have our moments where we may not want to be bothered
so just leave us alone, and your peace, and peace of mind will remain honored

i am judged by many, and for the most part, we will not worry about the multitude
when we become annoyed by stupidity, one, or all of us, will become extremely rude
one of us is the peaceful people, and the other one is always on strike mode
neither one of me (US) like confrontations, but we will stick to the G-Code (****)
wanting and needing to be loved, because we love, love........ for love has been good to us

one needs it because i do not like to be alone, and the other one only likes you for a certain period time....
 but i like love a bit more than lust, but trust, they are both good for us.... (BIG SMILE)
Our attitude is not destructive, we just rather speak what is on my brains
but the fact still remains, We'd rather not be tamed

NNAAWWWW, WE GOOD............

There is something about being able to get up and go
whether it is a club, church, or even a hotel, where we (ME)
can get a lil bit and off, off I (WE) go.... ya dig???
Ain't no such thing as doing your dirt by your lonely
you either doing your dirt with your partner, or your inner homey
Well, I think we have said enough about me (US), it may be best
to digress from our conversation, and maybe tomorrow we can start fresh...

It was nice speaking on behalf of Van Lamont and Utter Speech, maybe I (WE) can do it again
well, i gotta see what the other gotta say about that, but until then.
Maybe the rest of me(US) may want to speak out the next time
We keep them out of the public eye, but again, until then....
GOOD BYE
"xpressurself"

We have a battle inside of me, and only one of me can actually contain it
We have our moments being upset at me, and we purposely intensely refrain
Our days are filled with anger, happiness, and rebelliousness and we think we actually like it
our business is my business, and if we are feeling a certain way, then I surely will not fight it

not truly people persons, but we will give the shirt off of my back
you will never know what will come out of my mouth, nor do you know the impact

just like everyone else, we have our moments where we may not want to be bothered
so just leave us alone, and your peace, and peace of mind will remain honored

i am judged by many, and for the most part, we will not worry about the multitude
when we become annoyed by stupidity, one, or all of us, will become extremely rude
one of us is the peaceful people, and the other one is always on strike mode
neither one of me (US) like confrontations, but we will stick to the G-Code (****)
wanting and needing to be loved, because we love, love........ for love has been good to us

one needs it because i do not like to be alone, and the other one only likes you for a certain period time....
 but i like love a bit more than lust, but trust, they are both good for us.... (BIG SMILE)
Our attitude is not destructive, we just rather speak what is on my brains
but the fact still remains, We'd rather not be tamed

NNAAWWWW, WE GOOD............

There is something about being able to get up and go
whether it is a club, church, or even a hotel, where we (ME)
can get a lil bit and off, off I (WE) go.... ya dig???
Ain't no such thing as doing your dirt by your lonely
you either doing your dirt with your partner, or your inner homey
Well, I think we have said enough about me (US), it may be best
to digress from our conversation, and maybe tomorrow we can start fresh...

It was nice speaking on behalf of Van Lamont and Utter Speech, maybe I (WE) can do it again
well, i gotta see what the other gotta say about that, but until then.
Maybe the rest of me(US) may want to speak out the next time
We keep them out of the public eye, but again, until then....
GOOD BYE
"xpressurself"

"Let him"........

In all honesty, men have gotten to where no one knows if we are coming or going
there are a lot of things we are suppose to know, but we just dont be knowing
One major factor is a lot of us were not taught as kids how to be men
we have to have that example somewhere around us, but that part of life just never came in
so we had to use the set of cards that we had, but unfortunately most of the cards were red
Most of the women did the best they could, and did damn good as the head
but how are taught by someone that really did not have that experience themselves
to be honest, a lot of them prayed that lesson would come from someone else
so when that time came for us to stand up and do what must be done
the women reverted back to what they practiced for so long
so the battle of who is wearing the pants, and what i say goes
Who is actually right, now no one really knows.
women liberation has so many ladies lost as shit
and selfish and silly ass men walking around just as confused as the kids
but the WORD OF GOD, has never wavered, so lets learn right now
Women and men gotta start somewhere, it may as well be now... 

 (matt. 11:15 He that has ears, "let him" hear...)

ladies learn how to talk to him, not at him, he can hear you from a distance
say what you have to say, and allow him to learn how to listen
Every man that messes up is not dumb, stupid, or sorry
Edmond's mans learning curve is different from Corey's
If it takes him a little longer to get what you mean, you gotta find some way to be chill
do not get mad at everyone in the house, hell you chose to be with Bill
lower your voice, explaiin how you feel
 it is up to you to figure out how to make him hear.

(song of solomon 1:2,  Let him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth-- for your love is more delightful than wine

Coming from the hood, as well as a single mother home
momma is ok with letting him remain single and alone
There ain't too many stories about the birds and the bees
butterflies fluttering around through the flowers or the trees
Every woman has to teach their man how they want to be loved
how they want to be treated, spoken to, and in what way they want to be touched
We all know what happens in the hood, and what really goes down
I mean, who else is teaching your man, if mommy is too busy and if daddy is not around.
You know your man loves you, but the affection is just not there
calm your ass down, and be patient with him, that is how we know you truly care
i did not know how sweet and seductive a nice and sweet forehead kiss really could be
Until I saw the movie "Best Man", no one else ever told me


PRAY FOR YOUR MAN if you are the stronger in faith of the two PRAY.
it is possible to be unequally yoked, and both be people of faith
Sometimes ladies, it is ok to let him think it was his idea, although it was yours all day
LET HIM seek the kingdom of God, even if you have to kinda nudge him that way
We are dealing with what we got, just as you are playing this game of spades
you two are partners, through it all, and it is all about which team wins the game.
One thing that i learned, the hard way, is the man HAS TO LOVE his wife, this is our command
this means we also have to submit. (let him LOVE you 1. Cor. 13:7  It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
ALLOW him to give you what it is you want, as well as what it is you deserve.
"xpressurself"