i am Sorry....... **********************

^{Titus 2:
6} Similarly, encourage the young men to be self-controlled. ⁷ In everything set them an example by doing what is good. In your teaching show integrity, seriousness ⁸ and soundness of speech that cannot be condemned, so that those who oppose you may be ashamed because they have nothing bad to say about us.

a letter to the next generation....

First of all,
I WANT TO APOLOGIZE for not being what i have told YOU to be
i have been quick to tell you to control your self and hold a good amount of accountability
Stand tall, stand for something, stand when you feel like falling
stiff'n up that bottom lip, "TALK WITH YOUR CHEST" when you are talking
i have told you to be responsible for whatever it is you have done 
lead our women, making them believe in us again, and start by being examples to your sons
I remember saying you should not give anyone a reason to say anything bad about you
even though at times a man has to do what a man has to do.
I WANT TO APOLOGIZE for being a hypocrite in the house of the Lord
i paid more tribute to money and women, steady trying to bring more and more aboard
i stood in that pulpit with the Bible in my hand
"Preaching" sound doctrine, yet failing miserably as a Godly man
Well now i am asking for your forgiveness; and i reach out my hand to you
We all make mistakes, and i bid you not to do what i have done to you
I have led you away from believing that there is hope, but the end is not yet here
Along with your forgiveness, let's make the air clear
I wish you not to make the same mistakes i did, so allow me to lead
for i am "your Elder" and i am willing to lay my pride down for you, like i wish my elders would have done for me.
"xpressurself"

i just want some sleep............

i would give anything to be able to drift away to a place of pure nothingness
to lay my entire being to the side of the banks of space, with grace
having the feeling that i am literally on the moon, in a state of oblivious-ness
no stress, no wondering, no sight, no thought intent
gravity is not even a mere thought or option, as a matter of fact, it is non existent...
i do not want to be able to think about the things that have had me bogged down
this past day,,
thinking about the bullshit my co-worker had to say
not wanting to think about why i had to give the bird to a driver during my commute home
so much to do, so little time to do it, feeling i am riding this wave alone
 i wish it was already next week, i want to put so many things behind
but nnnnnoooooooooooo, my ass is counting with the clock on the wall, sharing its moment in time
i would give anything to be able to drift away to a place of pure nothingness, my eyes are already weak
I just want to get me some sleep.....

"xpressurself"