Do Not Lie to Me.....

All I ask is that you do not lie to me

I have a vivid understanding that I am

Nowhere close to perfect.

I am also subject to do something

So randomly horrible that by the end of the day

I could possibly be drowning in my own tears

Yet, life I will still not fear.

I know at times I may appear to have it all together

Even though the inside of me is twisting up

Just messed up. From the frigg’n floor up

Nonetheless, I am not fragile.

So if I do something that is not up to par

And I ask you to tell me…… then just tell me

Do not lie to me

I may write something that ONLY I understand

what it is saying, and you may be reading it like

WHAT…THE FFFFUUUU…………..

PLEASE just say…. Nothing, or ask me

WHAT THE FFFFUUUU…….????
Just the same, If I did not do anything wrong,

Do not say that I did just to make yourself

Feel like the bigger person.

I need you to understand, I have not been saved all my life

And you will hear from me

Life is to short for people to be fraud to another person

There is a difference between encouragement, and not wanting to hurt a person’s feelings

Lying to me, damages my feelings.

Even the brutal truth may hurt, and tears may actually form in my eyes

That is still more powerful than telling lies

The truth will make me look at myself, dry my tears, and do it differently

To better me

To strengthen me

To motivate and encourage me

So please, do not lie to me

“xpressurself”

It’s Hump Day Wednesday

Hey you, come over here

Come and sit down in front of me

No need in being nervous and shit

My mouth is just watery

Hold on for a second,

Let me go and get a clean rag

I was watching you working out

And I am wanting you really bad

But I just want to taste you

Let me clean you up right quick

I want to lick the soul out of that pussy

Then inject you with major erections of this hard dick

Look at you….. squirming

You look like you are ready

I have no time to be playing around

You are dripping really heavy

I see you like how I circle your clit

With my tongue, then take it and suck it

It has been 10 minutes, and already

2 times you nutted

I see you are ready for your shot, and

I am ready to insert

That ass is going in circles,

Now its time to put in work

You been working on your twerking moves

And that shit is insane

I love it when we cum together,

No go to work on this hump day Wednesday.

“xpressurself”

TIME unwind

Time after time as time takes its time

I day dreamed about if time could unwind

Would I want to go back, what would I find

Maybe time would tell me to just remove you from my mind

Though it has been decades ago, those memories remain sublime

Though our ongoing communication crosses that line

I don’t want to think about you

I would much rather diversify my time, and maybe start thinking about

What do I want to EAT for that day

When I get off from work, maybe I will watch a movie

What will be the next thought guided poem I would write, or maybe go and

Sit outside and talk and play with my damn dog

I need a haircut, let me go and get a beer

Yyeeaa,  BW3’s let me go and change my gear

NNNAAWWW< that is not really what I want to do

I just really want to stop thinking about you.

I figure it is only a matter of time, as time takes it’s time

The world moves in circles, so I wait till time unwinds

“xpressurself”

(feeling restored)

She had the audacity to tell me something about me, that she truly thought she knew

I heard, and I listened  until she was through

I believe she thought under my skin she would get

And she told me I was full of shit

Well, me being the type of guy that I am

I would have got back at her, but I am no longer that type of man

My humility has taught me to take in my indiscretion

No matter if right or wrong, just take out of it some type of lesson

I walked into this room, to look myself in the mirror

There was really no need to replay her words, because indeed I did hear her

When I walked into this room, looked in the mirror and took a good look at myself

Then I had to make sure I was there alone, and no one else

Restoration was mine, so I went in and took a seat

Cleansed myself of all of that mess, damn what did I eat?

A little time it did take, but I did take my time

After a few minutes, I started feeling just fine

A new man is brewing, and that release has me feeling a little lighter

OH MY GOD she was right, things are looking a bit brighter

Now relieved, I stood on up and cleaned myself off

Making sure I was good, I looked back in the mirror, feeling like a boss

Washed my hands, then dried them, a great feeling just hit me

Took a good shit, walked out of that bathroom, skipping down the hall whistling Dixie

“xpressurself”

Tuggle War

I had a dream last night...

I went into the bedroom

No intentions at all, except to lay down,

to rest my mind.... and t just chill out

The more I went into the room, there was this force

Pulling me.

At first I did not fight it

Because it had me. all of me,  and I think I liked it

I believe in the back of my mind I wanted it to control me,

But the shit just did not feel right

Especially at that time of night

So I started to resist, and the force would pull me a bit harder

I call myself trying to out think it, but it was just a bit smarter

Never in my life had I felt anything like this pure evil before

I was scared as hell, fighting the forces of hell,

That was trying to take me back with them to hell

My body was taken with several arms reaching out to me

With this invisible force, like a vacuum pulling, and pulling, and pulling me

I looked back at the corridor of my bedroom door, and there was my girl

Looking through my phone, saddened as if she had just lost her deceased grandmothers pair of pearls

And straight ahead of me was this woman I just met

She had been doing EVERYTHING that I had been pleading my girl to do for me, and had not done yet

This woman had been telling me that she needed me,

 my girl had been telling me the same the same stuff

This woman talks to me instead of at me,

and my girl is a little diamond in the rough
as much as i did for my girl, it never seemed to be enough
the few things i desired from her, she made it as if it was too much

This woman willingly encouraged me to do what my heart cries for

My girl has my heart, as well as a little bit more

Will I allow this force to pull me away, KNOWING this is not where I need to be

They say you cannot love two people at once, I wonder if they was including me.

“xpressurself”

Life Awakened......

I was feeling lifeless, and worthless, with no focus, no direction,
no sense of urgency, no mutual connection
 voice unheard; no projection
feeling like garbage in a compactor, lack of introspection
 sitting in my own pool of tears, accepting my imperfection
Then she came over to me, and straddled me, and I had no objection
 Then she inhaled, and BLEW LIFE INTO ME; mental erection
Her words were massive, with careful yet constant injections
 Pointing me erect, in the correct direction
SHE BREATHED LIFE into me, she gave me conviction
She spoke life into me