I Want My Life back

 

I really wish we could get our lives back.
I stand as a man, like everyone else, but where are my rights at.
No, the hats that I wear, are not the same hats that you may wear in combat.
But why attack my differences,
as if I am some type of hindrance,
where in the HELL they do that at.
I have a mind, a heart, praying for the means to be able
to carry all the upcoming weight on my back.
Please stop trying to piss me off, because my rage
Can indeed be a fact
God said vengeance was HIS, well I am in HIS image
Which means I am HE, and my anger will pound on your back
So please stop that.
For when I finally open my mind, it is time for you to draw back
I am a God amongst kings, a savage to my enemies and I WILL fight back
I only want to live with you, we should not have to exist with the pack
I am trying to be nice to you, but it seems you do not want that
I am standing as a man, and my black attack tactics are in tact
And I am getting anxious to use them, though I don’t want to
I only just, really just ……………………want to have my life back
“xpressurself”

""I Got You""

As I held her, she told me…………..

Baby, please just tell me that you love me

I been in my feelings for the longest time, and

Right now I am loving your embrace.

I never knew when I would, once again be in this place

With this uncontrollable  smile on my face

And because of you I feel misplaced.

This is surreal.

And as much as I am trying to not like you

I find myself loving you, though I know I do not want to.

I got some past issues that are forcing me to want to reject

What you are showing me.

But, the things you are telling me make me

Feel more at home.

Because you see, I have heard that from these fraud ass niggas

Nothing ass male figgas

These metro-sexual ass borderline bitches

Liars in every form of the word tell me how much they

Want to do for me

How they want to do nothing else but encourage and lift me….

And look at you… you are actually DOING it…

So right now… baby please…. I know that I am currently in my feelings….

But…………

Baby, please just tell me that you love me

While you are holding me firmly with your tight embrace….

With these tears running down my face

This is surreal.

And I am so loving this place…

“xpressurself”

"snc"

Beautiful Mind Grasped

Don’t talk to me

Just for a brief moment, I just need you to listen

Please just listen to me

You caught my attention at that very moment

You made that crooked smile, and you never realized you did it

It was the most beautiful thing I have seen in person

No kidding

I sat there and watched you as you flirted for a minute

And in the back of my mind,

 I was wondering who you really was

Everyone else that already knew you,

was dumb struck with their ooo’s and awes

I was just simply dumbstruck with my ooo’s and uh oh’s

Before I sat down in this bowl of grits,

what did I not know,

that I needed to know

Who are you hating right now,

 who has used you up and placed you in distress

How much has your mind been tainted

by the recklessness of someone else’s mess

I see the hope that dwells inside of you,

and that raw stark beauty of your mind

You beg to be seduced,

and to once again

have your mental clit stimulated

And I promise you,

you will not ever know what hit you.

I know you love sex, as I do,

but I would prefer to have you cum while I

Produce constant strokes,

injecting constant erections of love,

Protection, and spiritual inclinations, speaking about God

and all of HIS spiritual fables

I will be the gospel….. CHU’ch

Speaking on how HIS glory sent such a magnificent creature

To me.

I see you, and I hear you as well

I have a good grasp of where you use to dwell

I just need you to come with me, out of this hell

And stop thinking so damn much

You mind is beautiful as is, but just imagine

How much open you could be, after being properly mind fucked

Only the one that needs to understand you will understand you

Which will be the one you allow to command you

Transparency will be easy, you will have uncontrollable

Orgasmic reactions, and you will be so open you will ejaculate your life to me

I see it ain’t only your leg that is shaking…

No worries, I understand your situation….

I will tread lightly… I see you still sensitive…

I will start back up in a lil bit…

So breath… and clean up and rest a little…

To be continued………

“xpressurself”

""Every Blue Moon""

Every once in a while, perfection strikes in the midst of no where

Sometimes it is the perfect sight, the perfect outfit to wear,

The perfect gift, the perfect phrase,  the perfect breeze in the midst of the air

Sometimes it is just the perfect chill, and silence is everywhere

It is understood that no one is perfect, but that perfect person awaits

Like bait for a fish, with the perfect restraints

When you have prayed for it, no need to look, it will appear in its place

perfectly placed, and there she stands, breathing in the perfection of space

perfectly battered, mangled by the past

a hidden car wreck, she was broken and shattered by the impact of the crash

with perfect memories of the impact of the blast

lifelong scars are carried with her, and often rehashed

with no one on Earth able to help her get past such hurt

perfectly confused about the weight of her worth

with years on the brink of regretting her birth

a new image places her in the midst of hell on earth

but every blue moon, an angel appears at the right place and right time

sometimes God waits til we are at our lowest before he allows the light to shine

and the perfect glare hits us, to where we are briefly perfectly blind

and the only thing seen is the light, and that whisper from behind

Every blue moon……..

To be continued……

“xpressurself”

snc

10/12/2015