I Am So Sorry
I really just want to apologize to you.
Who am I to question anything you have done
out of all of the chaos i have caused, and the sins
i have committed, and still been brought from where I came from.
i want to apologize to you
even after i have said to you what i would or would not do
i stood before you after i called on you and just flat out lied through my tooth
whether intentional or not, no matter the reasons or excuses
there is so much sorrow and the need for forgiveness
i need to apologize to you
since the beginning of time you have clearly expressed
the hate you have for sin.
i feel like i often break your heart, and fit right in
of when i was said to be a worthless worm.
the wounds of my past and present are settled within me
and are a bit of a concern.
i thought i learned to deal stress, and hurt, and guilt, and heart-break, and
and loneliness and shame
anxiety has taken over me, and my broken emotions are what's to blame
but, in Jesus' name, what have i to gain, so please forgive me because
i would really like to apologize to you.
i am struggling with this thing that we call life, and it is currently
tearing me down
i be on my side of the field trying to figure this all out, but
this journey is long when doing it alone.
you have told me, that your grace is sufficient, you are all i will ever need,
but the confusion is baptizing my mental.
according to your word, i should not move according to my own understanding,
though I have, and I can't even lie and say that it was not done intentionally.
I truly wish it was that simple.
my actions were not only faithless, but unwise.
you want our obedience and trust in you, not sacrifice, and Father,
I really want to apologize
