What happened to the family.....

What happened to the days where you say what you meant
and what about the quality time, and you planned how it would be spent
the hustle and bustle of the day was off-set by family time at home
eating dinner at the table, no T.V., no radio, no interruption by cell phones
I can honestly say I missed those days, and this is Thursday, so my grandparents are bringing that back
My Medea be cooking up a storm for all of the family, immediate, cousins, and even the neighbors that live in the back
She prepares dinner for whoever comes by, either myself, my uncle, or my grandfather bless the food
eat while laughing, and talking about silly stuff like we did back in the day, and it was all good
The family has left our spirit because of the distractions that are now taking control
I want back everything that satin, that bastard devil stole
I use to say that the devil could not steal anything that we did not allow him to take
how naive was i, what a big lie from my mouth, what a huge mistake
NOW, seeing that he is doing his job and destroying what God has put together
it is now up to us to take it back, and nurture it, and keep it going on forever
Well, i am about to go and get my grub on, and chill with all my folk
getting fat full, play a little dominoes, and watch T.V. then go back for sum mo... (so what, it rhymes,,,lol)
as i hug, and kiss, and shake everyone's hand, i will leave and get on the road
I look forward to another Thursday coming around, to get another family over load...
"xpressurself"

i HEAR THE SILENCE..........(John 5:2-9)

 What causes a person to not have anything to talk about
the lips are closed, but the ears stay open.
 is this a person that is trying to replay some type of past event and live it in the future...
 maybe....
or maybe it is a person tthat just does not know how to say what he/she has to say.....
 maybe......
Maybe this person kows, that what he has to say is a great big excuse for something......
 How would this world be without more people that were willing to just listen more and talk less... yea, it would be extremely boring, but that would take away the gossip, and the backbiting, and a lot of the envy....
 What ever happened to that person that would listen to the other person more, instead of having a damn opinion about everything.....
sometimes, i just do not want you hear what you think
if ONLY we did make more of a conscience effort to be "ChristLike"
YEP, i did it, one word. ChristLike.
 Jesus did not force his opinion on anyone...
 if he was not asked, or in a position where he chose to make his point known,
if anything, he forced a conversation that would get you to respond..
after he allowed you to say what you needed to say,
 IF IT WAS NECESSARY then he would tell you either how faithful you were,
or how full of it you are..... (being the case in the scripture)...
BUT, he never cut you off so he could talk for the sake of hearing himself speak....
 He knew what he sounded like, he just found pleasure from the fact that there was another opportunity to build his father's kingdom.....
 He allowed you to make a choice, not for you to be pounded with his WORD,
we have to realize that more people have been helped, and more people have been saved by the precious gift of silence...
How Did Jesus know what was wrong with this man, or did he just want this man to be able to SAY what his issue was....
Silence is truly golden.....
Maybe we should try to just shut up sometimes, JUST to hear the other person out...
IAMJUSTSAYING...

oh, my my my

Yesterday was one of those days where I almost popped my supervisor in his eye

OH MY GOODNESS, Lawd have mercy, oh my, my , my , my ,my

He lied to management, claiming a screwed something up, who me, no not I

I Told him, “dude you told me to do this, I asked you a question, and you gave me your reply”

I gave my account of what happened and I told him he was a lie

I claimed my peace, and it was the end of the workday, so before I went any further, I said “dude see you tomorrow, good bye”

The next day came, and he started to speak, and I said “what the damn deal is guy?

He had this bewildered look on his face, and I asked him did he wanna recap on his lie?

He claimed he did not remember saying what he said, so I pulled out an email with his reply

I asked him, was someone on you computer that day,  and if it was, then why

I forwarded the email to his manager, and his manager came back and got fly

Raised a little hell, got into both of our asses because I got fly with my boss that needed to be popped in his eye

But it was only the love of Christ that stopped me, ooooohhhh my, my, my, my, my

My Morning Release

O.M.FRIK'N G.
I not too long woke  up, after talking to a friend on the phone
I know it was kind of early, but that was the way it goes
about 5 minutes after i hung up the phone, i had this uncomfortable feeling
I knew what time it was, so i did something that would start the healing
My stomach was in pain, and i felt really bad
hell, i was borderline mad
I sat on that seat, and prayed to my father in Heaven, and as I looked up
FATHER, PLEASE TAKE AWAY THIS PRESSURE THAT HAS BUILT UP
Release me Lord, because it is too much to handle, and i need to let this go
almost IMMEDIATELY after my request, this is what was granted to me
almost instantly, i had a great monkey taken away from me, oooowwwweeeee
I was again able to breath, and my speech was not so hard and strained
thank you so much... OOHHH LAWD... thanks
got up from my porcelain chair, and cleaned up where I sat
scratched my ass and pulled up my pants, and into the bed I went back...

"xpressURself"

To My Friend....(Mended Heart)

To my friend,
I heard you when you said it, I just did not know how to take it
This thing in your heart, there is no way to fake it
I wish you could break it
For the sake of carrying on, this trust issue can not be evaded
Yea I understand, it hurts and you do not want to face it
And there are no words in the world that can replace it
Your heart will take you as far as you allow yourself to take it
Put that shit in the past, and allow yourself to make it
That dude is waiting for you to make your choice.
And he will not move until he hears your voice
Go ahead and keep up that wall, and making no noise
You could be missing out on a plethora of joys
Holding a grudge has never been good booboo
You told me that you were fucked up, so what are you gonna do
This dude is crazy about you
And he is waiting for you to say that pain is through
I need you to survive, and only you can make that step
The 1st is saying it is over, and you will not fret
Live your life without worry or threat
You will probably smile a little more, I am willing to bet.
You make that 1st move, and I promise he will make the next 4
That pain you carry with you, you will have no more
He is capable of lifting you up causing you to hurt no more
Just imaging the joys and the glory you’d have in store
Just reconcile, and forgive, and witness will be you
He has sssooo many things to carry you through
The things you have missed out on, will be given to you
Jesus Christ carries out all the things he said he would do.

"xpressURsellf"

running back into a fist

 what are these words that you keep on telling me
they sound really good, and they are floating deep
you got me secure, believing what you say
I look forward to your bullshit, every day
"You are tired of his shit", "this nigga gotta go"
"he has disrespected me for the last time, i gotta let him know"
you tell me WHEN you get outta this situation, you are not getting back into it
2 months down the line, I noticed that you ran back into another fist...
WHY???


"xpressURself"

home alone... eating chili...

i had some chili and beans, cooked them myself
home alone, with no one else
a place of solitude, in need of rest
head hurting badly, breaking out in a deep sweat
my day is almost over, need to wash some clothes
going on a little trip tomorrow, and i am ready to go
will be taking care of some business, then go watch a show
have a lot of support in my corner, pointing my direction of where i need to go
Father, teach me to speak, control my flow
a day and a life, my life is to claim true
and do what i know i need to do
for this is my life, and i finally know what i need to do
finally realizing, my life belongs not to me, but to you



"xpressURself"