God is a Great,,,,

how great is he that keeps us from bumping into a brick wall

at the last minute he catches us from that mighty fall

moves those big holes in our walkway so we can continue to walk on that path

BUT WE STILL ALWAYS FALL IN, it is not Gods fault you choose to walk the opposite way so fast

how often do we get off of that straight and narrow, and begin to go the way WE pick

and we allways call on HIM when we fall face first in our own shit

either we are taking too long to get to where we are trying to go

Yet we end up taking 3 times longer because we wanted to lead the show.

then when we get so far in trouble we have the nerves to ask God why did he take us that route

and God be like, **REALLY, SERIOUSLY,  WWWOOOOWWW**

so, what does he do, he takes us back that same route, just to show us what was really down that path

and though we took it upon ourselves, he hid the dangers from us, only scaring us and i would not be surprised if he was laughing at our dumb ass

and that same place where we left off, he is still there, READY to takes where we were suppose to go from the jump

willing to carry us through the hard plains and mountains, and dangers and scarry stuff.

And the funny part is that we still have the ordacity to still complain when things still do not go our way.

Well I will put it like this, God is still the best in my book, and that is all i have to say

we need to get our minds right, and start thinking about how we got to where we are

he could have left us at that detour we took, and left us lost, and afraid, and scarred.

i know this is not church, but we need to thank God for all that he has done

and each time satan came and grabbed us, praise God for the victory he has won.....

There is nothing that i would not give

how in the hell did i get into this.
something that I thought i wanted, but DDDAAAMMMNNN, TO THIS SHIT
i gotta say it is nice, but I know i gotta occasionally tighten my g-string up a bit
this feeling i have to admit, this is something i never had, so it is something i have never;missed
Me and my being defensive over something i asked for , kind of makes me a hypocrite
but i do not want to hear about myself, not even a little bit
i need to do this, and i need to do that..... ain't that some "ish"
i wanna be who i am, and do what i want and live how i want to live
i just know that i can't do that, but what is it do i have to give
i have been told, "you  don't like to listen, and  am like, it is what it is
i is just who i is....
i be thinking mind your business, leave me alone live the life you live
BUT after all of that to feel like i am being looked after, loved and cared for, and not used in the process, there is nothing that i would not give

did i really do that?

as this day begins, i release myself from thinking i can conquer the worlds issues on my own
i personnally take myself away from the world of  giving my life to the outside world of beong in control
there have been damage relationships, broken hearts, and pissed off people in my life that have counted on me to keep things together
instead i would take my frustration andother peoples negativity out on some thinking i would be able to hold it down
thinking i could do the same with those in my circle, with those that i needed, with those that i tried to keep around
i stand right now a coward, pleading to god to accept my failure and allow me to move on with my head in the air
father i thank you for doing what you do, and keeping it real with me, for your chastizement is painful but ever so fair.
all i can is you point out my issues and place them in front of me so i can not say that i missed them in the process
i know the deal, it is painful right now the way that i feel, it is a lesson though, nonetheless