There is nothing that i would not give

how in the hell did i get into this.
something that I thought i wanted, but DDDAAAMMMNNN, TO THIS SHIT
i gotta say it is nice, but I know i gotta occasionally tighten my g-string up a bit
this feeling i have to admit, this is something i never had, so it is something i have never;missed
Me and my being defensive over something i asked for , kind of makes me a hypocrite
but i do not want to hear about myself, not even a little bit
i need to do this, and i need to do that..... ain't that some "ish"
i wanna be who i am, and do what i want and live how i want to live
i just know that i can't do that, but what is it do i have to give
i have been told, "you  don't like to listen, and  am like, it is what it is
i is just who i is....
i be thinking mind your business, leave me alone live the life you live
BUT after all of that to feel like i am being looked after, loved and cared for, and not used in the process, there is nothing that i would not give