Aborted Opportunity..... Non-Existant......******************

Hello you,
I just wanted to say hi.... I have been thinking about you a lot lately
The hopes i had of our union have been vexing my soul greatly
I remember those possibilities i had of actually holding you in my arms
though it was brief, yet real at time, i still hold that feeling so strong
i see your face and what it would have looked like, if your existence would have just came true
but it remains only that, a vision....a perfect imaginary image......... of you
i loved you even though i have never touched you, for my admiration unlike you, is so real
Only God knows how i feel
 i am not getting any younger, but i have nothing to show for my life
I have been able to touch most things i have yearned so long for, and it was nice
The one thing that i crave is the one thing i have yet to have
where is my cradle, my up in the middle of the nights, my tickle me elmo bubble bath
i see daily how many of these chicken shit ass bastards negate the most precious thing known to man
i have watched how, upon creation, their destiny as men and fathers tend to fall short of God's plan
Though a man like me has to accept the broken pathway of Queens decisions to self abort life as if it was their decision to make.
God's will is God's will, and it is a pathway i am forced to take
so I will.... humbly, with animosity for my first real chance that i once had
so sad... it could have happened, it should have happened..... it didn;t happen... so, so, sad
but it still seems like the joke was all on me....nonetheless, i still, only just wanted to say hello,
though i have never seen you, or experienced you mere existence..... i still miss you. and i do love you so..
"xpressurself"