Walked in the courtroom and my knees buckled
I faced the prosecutor
And the executioner
And I was asked, did I do it
Did I have a past that I truly regret
Did I do and say things that would force
me to lose my respect
HOT DAMMIT, I did it I tell you, it was me I admit it, now leave me the hell alone
My past is just that, my past so please stop handing me back my old bones.
I want to beat you with it, slap the hell out of you with my skeletons that I am trying to hide
But your egotistical, holier than thou ass just will not allow me to leave my past behind
It was me that ravaged that beautiful tall glass of water, I swear it, but she begged me to
Now what type of man would I be if I did not oblige, come on now, what else was I to do.
She was standing there looking all watery, and vulnerable, and she just wanted to be held
I felt bad in the beginning, but I did that, I hit that, did I like her or love her, a player will never tell???
I did what I did, and it was what it was, I mean her sister should not have been talking about it
If she never would have opened her mouth, she never would have known about it
HUH? WHAT? WHAT EVER DOTH THOU MEANETH????
All of the dirt I did in the past, it is up to me to clean it.
Yea I triggered a dude, he was being rude, and I only asked him to PLEASE not stand so close
He looked at me looking at him, could I have moved away….. yyyeeeeaaahhhh I suppose
I WAS THERE FIRST DAMMIT, I WAS ALREADY IN PLACE.
He pushed me, and I only aimed it his way, I was not TRYING to hit him in the face
What do you mean just let it go, I would if folk would let me
I hear about my past actions daily, I wish all of they asses would just forget me
I put that CD back in its spot, I never walked out of the store, I would not have gotten far
I was only riding with those dudes, I did not help them break into those cars,
Yea, that drag from the Mary J. got into my blood, but I never took a puff
OK, OK, PLEASE STOP…. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH
I know, it is my responsibility to change if I want change, and change is my main option
My past will never go away, it will never be forgotten
This is a new day of living and this is a different me
Running up in a sexy fine chic just because, no longer is that me
Running with the goons at night, no longer is that me………
Smoking that Dro is long gone, no longer is that me….
My lonely days of solitude, no longer is that me…
Being just so damn rude, no longer is that “totally” me… iamjustsaying…
Being over sensitive, upset for no reason, no longer is that me…
I must show that I am capable of being responsible and disciplined if I am to be the man that I am trying to be
There are many who act as if they are NOT watching me….
I must stand as a man, so please understand that this new way of living is different for me..
it was me I admit it, now leave me the hell alone, and let me now be who God has called me to be….
