Tuesday, December 30, 2014

“Unspoken Words”****************



 
Without uttering a word….
As she sat in my lap, kinda curled up in a fetal position.
I am use to her talking, so I prepared to listen.
And she without a murmur, mentioned that her day was long and tiring and,
Affection is all that she desired
Inspiring me to pamper her, as she tightly gripped my neck
She just needed to be held, with no signs of neglect.
The respect she wanted, I gave it, with no hatefulness or resentment.
It felt like she was searching for some type of contentment
For my, commitment bared no mercy. On the couch trying to rest,
She lowered her head, planting her forehead to my chest,
At best, her soul just wanted to be touched.
Gripping her tightly; holding her compassionately was enough.
All of that stuff she has had going on was weighing down heavily
And with unspoken words, I sat quietly; respectfully.
She needed empathy, and she received it. She just wanted to be held
And not bogged down inside of this invisible shell,
With no voice she yelled, and many things were made very clear.
She was open; for a short second, she felt no fear.
No tear, no worry, no issues, no sounds were heard.
She revealed all of this utterly silent, no expressions, no words
unspoken, uncluttered, unveiled, unheard…
Speaking loudly through her actions: nothing was heard
but bold unspoken words…
"xpressurself"
12/30/2014

well damn....

she really does not know me
i mean, i see her sitting right in front of me
but she does not hear anything i say, but at least i know NOW
what she thinks of me
any and all things that i have done it seems like
it was all for nothing...
not to go into the woe is me thing
but i look at what i actually have to bring
to the table. not even a thank you
but instead i see all that i do wrong
well damn, what do i do right, is this really where i belong
now i guess she wants to follow me everywhere i go
she wants to know everyone i know
FUCK, it was an inappropriate conversation
with a person i dated, 18 years ago.
 been actual best friends for the last 10 of those years
but now an inappropriate talk has gotten us here
hell, seeing that me coming right home still gets me in trouble,
i wonder what would happen if i start staying out late.... wwwooooeeee.....
now i am just like.... fuck it.....
NNNOOOWWW i am REALLY bored....
"xpressurself"