well damn....

she really does not know me
i mean, i see her sitting right in front of me
but she does not hear anything i say, but at least i know NOW
what she thinks of me
any and all things that i have done it seems like
it was all for nothing...
not to go into the woe is me thing
but i look at what i actually have to bring
to the table. not even a thank you
but instead i see all that i do wrong
well damn, what do i do right, is this really where i belong
now i guess she wants to follow me everywhere i go
she wants to know everyone i know
FUCK, it was an inappropriate conversation
with a person i dated, 18 years ago.
 been actual best friends for the last 10 of those years
but now an inappropriate talk has gotten us here
hell, seeing that me coming right home still gets me in trouble,
i wonder what would happen if i start staying out late.... wwwooooeeee.....
now i am just like.... fuck it.....
NNNOOOWWW i am REALLY bored....
"xpressurself"