Tis the day the Lord hath made, and thus far all is well in my soul
Through the months of depression and anguish and fear, and other emotions that I have tried to withhold
I rest on the comfort in knowing that my days come one day at a time
Some days I am so damn angry, and others I am doing just fine
Me being a Gemini is the first excuse most pull to their simple minds
OMG, this dude is bi-polar is the other excuse that I seem to be confined
I have learned that my tolerance for stupidity, and unconcern for me brings out the worse in me
i have not tried to be the ass that i am, but as for this moment, this is how it has to be
At one time it was me that use to give all that I had for others, without looking for anything in return
The person that I THOUGHT God had given to me would be the last person on earth that would leave me out there to be burned
So the trust of a woman in my life is gone, and I have no idea how to get that back
Many claim to be down for me, but it is themselves they focus on keeping on track
Me being honest is a given, but being forceful in my speech
This is not who I am, this is truly not me
When I sense bullshit, my phuck you button is pressed and I drift away ever so slowly and cautiously
Will I ever be reprogrammed into who I am, I will in time; prayerfully
I have recently realized that I MAY be damaged goods, it was recently brought to my attention
I pray I am capable to open up again, to hurt anyone is never my intention
But I am that I am, and my phuck it button is out of service until that moment my dumb shit tolerance level is triggered
I will remain isolated in my little island of solitude, and just come out to visit the sun randomly i figure
I will deal with those that i KNOW love me, and took the time to know how i became who i have become
As of a little while ago, but whole being has just become so numb.
I have been visited by my Savior, Jesus and he has given me a peace of mind, for I wish to again be made whole
As for today, this is the day that the Lord hath made, and thus far, all is well in my soul