Saturday, August 27, 2011

All is well with my Soul.....

Tis the day the Lord hath made, and thus far all is well in my soul
Through the months of depression and anguish and fear, and other emotions that I have tried to withhold
I rest on the comfort in knowing that my days come one day at a time
Some days I am so damn angry, and others I am doing just fine
Me being a Gemini is the first excuse most pull to their simple minds
OMG, this dude is bi-polar is the other excuse that I seem to be confined
I have learned that my tolerance for stupidity, and unconcern for me brings out the worse in me
i have not tried to be the ass that i am, but as for this moment, this is how it has to be
At one time it was me that use to give all that I had for others, without looking for anything in return
The person that I THOUGHT God had given to me would be the last person on earth that would leave me out there to be burned
So the trust of a woman in my life is gone, and I have no idea how to get that back
Many claim to be down for me, but it is themselves they focus on keeping on track
Me being honest is a given, but being forceful in my speech
This is not who I am, this is truly not me
When I sense bullshit, my phuck you button is pressed and I drift away ever so slowly and cautiously
Will I ever be reprogrammed into who I am, I will in time; prayerfully
I have recently realized that I MAY be damaged goods, it was recently brought to my attention
I pray I am capable to open up again, to hurt anyone is never my intention
But I am that I am, and my phuck it button is out of service until that moment my dumb shit tolerance level is triggered
I will remain isolated in my little island of solitude, and just come out to visit the sun randomly i figure
I will deal with those that i KNOW love me, and took the time to know how i became who i have become
As of a little while ago, but whole being has just become so numb.
I have been visited by my Savior, Jesus and he has given me a peace of mind, for I wish to again be made whole
As for today, this is the day that the Lord hath made, and thus far, all is well in my soul