The only reason I fight so hard to be heard, is because I
need someone to just tell me to hush…. Listen. THIS is what you need to do. I
just need someone to
Hear where I am coming from (for a change), and not compare
everything I do with someone else. But to allow me to explain myself. Talking
is not one of my strong points, but I so yearn to be pushed and encouraged;
supported. But I have gotten to where I would rather go outside and sit on the
porch, or go to the back yard and chill with my dog. Not as if she understands
anything I am talking about. But she will sit, listen, and without judging me
for the way I think, or for the way that I am, she will simply look back at me,
as to ask me, why have I stopped rubbing her on her head. She will then either
take her paw, or with the tip of her nose, place my hand back on her head, and
rub. And for a little while, I have just spent time with the best friend a man
could ever have. She got it right. Just sit with me, watching the trees dancing
with every breath of the wind, listening. I just wanted to hear everything will
be ok. yyeeaaa, but I will take what I get.
"xpressurself"
