GUIDE ME O'....

"GUIDE ME O' THOU GREAT JEHOVAH. PILGRIM THROUGH THIS BARREN LAND"
we went out there with the best of intentions, thanking we's gonna go ret on across
we didn't count on all of those detours and road blocks made by deep ditches, and fallen trees sit'n in the middle of dem folks house
we walked for almost 40 days and 40 nights, we started thank'n we's lost
but we were hold'n on, yea yet hold'n on, with no plans of fall'n off

"I AM WEAK, BUT THOU ART MIGHTY. HOLD ME WITH THOU POWERFUL HAND"
Thou we are following Christ, we are human, and faint we start'n to grow
the elder folk that be traveling with us, dey strength start'n to get low
but not one time did they mumble a word, for dey knew where dey was bout to go
dey was hold'n on, yea yet hold'n on, keep'n up wit the flow

"BREAD OF HEAVEN, BREAD OF HEAVEN, FEED ME TIL I WANT NO MORE"
now here is where thangs started to feel a lil bit odd
folk were growing hungrier and hungrier, the mo down this path we trod
we had our believers, and unbelievers, and those on lookers being real fraud
 the elderly was our examples, for dey was content only filled with a word from God

"OPEN WIDE THOU CRYSTAL FOUNTAIN, WHENST THOU HEALING WATER FLOW"
there was a great transformation taking over the land, and at first we did not understand
so much power was being past through one another, woman to woman, man to man
this journey was almost behind us, and we found strength through leaning on each other, and by the holding of hands
we held on, an still yet hold'n on, thanx to our Saviour for keep'n us focused on God's plan...
"xpressurself"

A Letter To my T- Jone

I ought to be a little subtle about how things actually went down.

Whether you were in the house fuss'n or if we were outside wrestling outside on the ground.

Angela and Melissa could not understand how we said some of the things to each 
other that we would say.

How we acted towards each other and why you would respond in such a way.

At the time they did not realize what we had actually been through.

How at times I would not eat just so you would be able to.

How you sat and looked at the look on my face when I had things taken away from me.

You felt what I felt and even saw things that I really could not see.

I really can not say that I learned affection from you but love I saw a lot.

I was given from God a gift that so many people never got.

I recv’d time, love, respect, an occasional beating when deserved.

A lesson from you I did not get from my dad, which was important for me to learn.

While we were home alone we had more time to understand each other.

I am proud to say you were more than mom, we were like sister and brother.

From showing me how to shake a man’s hand, to how I should treat my wife.

I have to thank God for Mother’s Day and for having you in my life.

"xpressurself"

Old Man Rivers.....

It is said that you can learn a lot by those that do not say a word

I heard that and did not understand that, in fact I’m thinking that’s absurd.

me being a man of god, my first thought was that would mean I’m assuming the facts.

God would say I am judging another and, words can not be taken back.

My thoughts of this changed when I had a little talk.

this being that some called "OLD MAN RIVERS", as I went for a lil walk.

Old Man Rivers is a wise old goat, and I know he is only bluffing.

" I know you know, that I know you know something", but old man rivers says nothing.

I just watch him as he moves with grace as he connects with madam ocean.

spreading all of that information, thinking he can keep it from me.

well, how does he get that notion?

come on old man rivers, you have been here since the beginning of time.

then I thought about what old folks use to say, close your mouth and open your eyes.

so I’m watching old man rivers amazed at how he moves.

no, I am not funny, just amazed at the age and he is still able to grove.

so I began to walk with the old man, and talking and my mouth dropped by what was said.

listening and all I could do was just, shake my head.

he said, "I've been spit on and dumped on while being forced to hide many ruins.

not too many people have learned how to talk to me in the way that you are doin.

it is impossible for any man to get too deep in my soul and expect to continue to live.

so you do not ever need to try, this is the advice I give.

My soul carries many secrets and my body and mind has memories you could never imagine true.

These things you hear from me, until the end of your earthly and spiritual life must stay with you.

I am among the only being that has ever seen the glory of God and still managed to stay alive.

for I am blessed as well as cursed, but one day I too will rise.

I was there when his head was dipped; heck it was I that God entrusted to wash his head.

I share with my brother, as he sits in the graveyard; we hold the bodies of the dead.

We have witnessed many things I have seen many things, I have heard many things

I have held on to many things, and I have kept quiet to many things.

I tell you this too, there have been times while minding my own business alone.

Along comes your young lovey dovey couples’ wanting to get it on.

Some just want a listening ear, at times I am your best shrink.

As much information that I have, I have no time to think".

Before I knew it,  hrs. had passed and all that I heard will take a lifetime to process it all.

Even if I tried to forget it, I would automatically recall.

I told old man rivers, I would see him later; as he rolled away, he never responded.

for hrs. I feel as if we really, really bonded.
so if you ever come across Old Man Rivers, this was an experience thhat was worth the time
Walk beside him and listen to his life, he certain will not mind
"xpressurself"

My 3 first Loves...

IN MEMORY CLEARLY OF MY 1ST LOVES, I WILL START FROM NUMBER 3.

BASIC EVENTS, THOUGH NOT IN DETAIL ON HOW A FEW THINGS WENT DOWN WITH ME.

NUMBER 3): SUZY Q, I WILL NOT PONDER ON WHAT WAS LOST, BUT WHAT IT WAS THAT I HAD.

WHAT CAN I SAY, I MADE HER LEAVE, AND SHE LEFT, THERE IS NOT TOO MUCH MORE TO ADD.

I WAS ALWAYS THERE, BUT I WAS NEVER AROUND WHEN I NEEDED TO BE.

I PRAYED AFTER SHE LEFT, AND GOD DEALT WITH ME WHICH FORCED ME TO MY KNEES.

I WENT AWAY TO ANOTHER STATE, WHERE THERE WAS NOT TOO MUCH LUST.

WHERE I LEARNED WHERE I NEEDED TO PUT MORE OF MY TRUST.

WHEN I CRIED, I WOULD WRITE AND MY SOUL WOULD SIGH.

IN AN INSTANT OF RELIEF I WOULD QUICKLY STOP MY CRY.

NUMBER 2): MY GIFT IS NOT SPEAKING, OR TEACHING, BUT MY GIFT IS _EXPRESSION

IT COULD BE REMEMBERING A SCRIPT, WRITING A LETTER, BUT IT IS LIKE MY SOUL WOULD GIVE A CONFESSION.

I HAVE WRITTEN MYSELF HAPPY, AND I HAVE WRITTEN MYSELF TO THE TRUTH.

I HAVE WRITTEN MYSELF TO SLEEP AND I HAVE WRITTEN MYSELF TO A BOTTLE OF 151 PROOF.

I HAVE WOKE-UP FROM A DEEP SLEEP AND WRITTEN MYSELF INTO A DAYDREAM.

I HAVE WRITTEN MYSELF FROM KICKING SOMEONES ASS, OOOOOOO I HAD TO GET DOWN ON MY KNEES

I CAN WRITE WRITTEN WORDS THAT ARE WAITING TO WANDER.

I HAVE WRITTEN FOR SOMEONE ELSE TO BE OUT OF CONFUSION, SO THEY WOULD NOT BEGAN TO PONDER.

I HAVE WRITTEN SO MUCH FROM THINGS THAT I HAVE SEEN, AT THE SAME TIME NEVER FORGETTING THE SOURCE.

I HAVE BEEN ASKED, "DO I LOVE MY 1ST FIRST LOVE?"

WHO IS IT?

AND I WILL SAY IT IS GOD, AND DO I LOVE HIM? OF COURSE!

NUMBER 1): MY 1ST FIRST LOVE IS AND ALWAYS WILL BE OF ME, WITH ME, IN ME, FOR ME, BESIDE ME, SINCERLY.

HE PROMISED TO LOVE ME, TO PROTECT ME, TO COMFORT ME, TO CHASTISE ME, TO LISTEN TO ME, TO GUIDE ME, FOR ETERNITY.

THERE WAS A TIME WHERE MY FIRST LOVE SENT ME IN THE MIDST OF WOLVES, AND HE SIMPLY TOLD ME TO STAND.

IF I NEEDED ADVICE FOR ANY SITUATION, HE COMMANDED ME TO NEVER PUT MY TRUST IN MAN.

SO TO GOD BE THE GLORY, THE STORY OF MY LIFE, TEACHER AND PROTECTOR OF MY SOUL.

THE CREATOR OF LIFE HAS GIVEN ME WISDOM AND A CHANCE AT LIFE UNTIL I GROW OLD.

HE HAS TAKEN ME THROUGH THINGS, NOT BEING MEAN, BUT TO TEACH ME HOW TO WAIT FOR WHAT HE HAS IN STORE FOR ME.

TO GOD BE THE GLORY AND THANK YOU FOR MY 3 FIRST LOVES, AND THANK YOU FOR A CHANCE TO FINALLY SEE
"xpressurself"