My 3 first Loves...

IN MEMORY CLEARLY OF MY 1ST LOVES, I WILL START FROM NUMBER 3.

BASIC EVENTS, THOUGH NOT IN DETAIL ON HOW A FEW THINGS WENT DOWN WITH ME.

NUMBER 3): SUZY Q, I WILL NOT PONDER ON WHAT WAS LOST, BUT WHAT IT WAS THAT I HAD.

WHAT CAN I SAY, I MADE HER LEAVE, AND SHE LEFT, THERE IS NOT TOO MUCH MORE TO ADD.

I WAS ALWAYS THERE, BUT I WAS NEVER AROUND WHEN I NEEDED TO BE.

I PRAYED AFTER SHE LEFT, AND GOD DEALT WITH ME WHICH FORCED ME TO MY KNEES.

I WENT AWAY TO ANOTHER STATE, WHERE THERE WAS NOT TOO MUCH LUST.

WHERE I LEARNED WHERE I NEEDED TO PUT MORE OF MY TRUST.

WHEN I CRIED, I WOULD WRITE AND MY SOUL WOULD SIGH.

IN AN INSTANT OF RELIEF I WOULD QUICKLY STOP MY CRY.

NUMBER 2): MY GIFT IS NOT SPEAKING, OR TEACHING, BUT MY GIFT IS _EXPRESSION

IT COULD BE REMEMBERING A SCRIPT, WRITING A LETTER, BUT IT IS LIKE MY SOUL WOULD GIVE A CONFESSION.

I HAVE WRITTEN MYSELF HAPPY, AND I HAVE WRITTEN MYSELF TO THE TRUTH.

I HAVE WRITTEN MYSELF TO SLEEP AND I HAVE WRITTEN MYSELF TO A BOTTLE OF 151 PROOF.

I HAVE WOKE-UP FROM A DEEP SLEEP AND WRITTEN MYSELF INTO A DAYDREAM.

I HAVE WRITTEN MYSELF FROM KICKING SOMEONES ASS, OOOOOOO I HAD TO GET DOWN ON MY KNEES

I CAN WRITE WRITTEN WORDS THAT ARE WAITING TO WANDER.

I HAVE WRITTEN FOR SOMEONE ELSE TO BE OUT OF CONFUSION, SO THEY WOULD NOT BEGAN TO PONDER.

I HAVE WRITTEN SO MUCH FROM THINGS THAT I HAVE SEEN, AT THE SAME TIME NEVER FORGETTING THE SOURCE.

I HAVE BEEN ASKED, "DO I LOVE MY 1ST FIRST LOVE?"

WHO IS IT?

AND I WILL SAY IT IS GOD, AND DO I LOVE HIM? OF COURSE!

NUMBER 1): MY 1ST FIRST LOVE IS AND ALWAYS WILL BE OF ME, WITH ME, IN ME, FOR ME, BESIDE ME, SINCERLY.

HE PROMISED TO LOVE ME, TO PROTECT ME, TO COMFORT ME, TO CHASTISE ME, TO LISTEN TO ME, TO GUIDE ME, FOR ETERNITY.

THERE WAS A TIME WHERE MY FIRST LOVE SENT ME IN THE MIDST OF WOLVES, AND HE SIMPLY TOLD ME TO STAND.

IF I NEEDED ADVICE FOR ANY SITUATION, HE COMMANDED ME TO NEVER PUT MY TRUST IN MAN.

SO TO GOD BE THE GLORY, THE STORY OF MY LIFE, TEACHER AND PROTECTOR OF MY SOUL.

THE CREATOR OF LIFE HAS GIVEN ME WISDOM AND A CHANCE AT LIFE UNTIL I GROW OLD.

HE HAS TAKEN ME THROUGH THINGS, NOT BEING MEAN, BUT TO TEACH ME HOW TO WAIT FOR WHAT HE HAS IN STORE FOR ME.

TO GOD BE THE GLORY AND THANK YOU FOR MY 3 FIRST LOVES, AND THANK YOU FOR A CHANCE TO FINALLY SEE
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