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what is the basis of the things that you speak of
you try to make sense, but that is impossible when you talk about love
is there anything else that makes you think for a change
running all around, totally deranged
having to wait around when you know you messed up
given an altermatum that you know is not sticky stuck
i mean you do what you are asked, and things  still do not work
you should have fixed some things from the beginning, instead of being a jerk
the reality is here, of what is to become
what is to come? karma is a bitch, and she will come.
"xpressurself"

I am trying...... it really does not matter

Father i am trying to be patient, and I am trying

but the urge is too strong for me, and there is no need in denying

Even when she is not in my eyesight i smell her scent

when i look around, to search for her, once again i am wondering where she went

i have spent a great deal of my life with distractions that i incurred on my own

and each time you come around, there goes another, and when i look up each time you are gone

God sends you back around for a reason

Even now, i really do not understand, but dammit I am definitely listening

now, i have prayed for many things, and each time i have received

This is one thing I thought wouldn’t even be a thought because of the time between

Now you have placed me in positions where i have learned who I am

Finally I know what i am to do, my purpose in life, but why now, i mean mmmaaannn

Yes you have given me my assignment, and you have taught me patience to the 5th power

you have taught me how and when to silence myself, and to stop trying to be the man of the hour

I have always known how to accept the good with the bad

to get what I get and take care of it, no matter what it is i had

God I am asking you to grant me my life with what i have encountered for close to 20 years

grant me the excitement and calmness that i feel EACH time she comes near

This is the only woman that i can honestly say that I would snatch my frik’n heart out and give it to her is she needed it

and would not even worry about replacing it

what i have which is not much is all for her

her  mistakes, issues, her situation i will not take it, but together we will deal with it

hell i will help you with that monkey, but i will not invest it

I mean, we made our own individual beds, but i do not see why we cannot lie on that mattress together

We can fight this shit, whenever, however, forever

I am just praying God allows us to do it..... TOGETHER...... HOWEVER... WHENEVER.... TOGETHER....

with blood sweat and tears..... To me, it really does not matter