My Responsibility.... No Longer in Me...

Walked in the courtroom and my knees buckled

I faced the prosecutor

And the executioner

And I was asked, did I do it

Did I have a past that I truly regret

Did I do and say things that would force

me to lose my respect

HOT DAMMIT, I did it I tell you, it was me I admit it, now leave me the hell alone

My past is just that, my past so please stop handing me back my old bones.

I want to beat you with it, slap the hell out of you with my skeletons that I am trying to hide

But your egotistical, holier than thou ass just will not allow me to leave my past behind

It was me that ravaged that beautiful tall glass of water, I swear it, but she begged me to

Now what type of man would I be if I did not oblige, come on now, what else was I to do.

She was standing there looking all watery, and vulnerable, and she just wanted to be held

I felt bad in the beginning, but I did that, I hit that, did I like her or love her, a player will never tell???

I did what I did, and it was what it was, I mean her sister should not have been talking about it

If she never would have opened her mouth, she never would have known about it

HUH? WHAT? WHAT EVER DOTH THOU MEANETH????

All of the dirt I did in the past, it is up to me to clean it.

Yea I triggered a dude, he was being rude, and I only asked him to PLEASE not stand so close

He looked at me looking at him, could I have moved away….. yyyeeeeaaahhhh I suppose

I WAS THERE FIRST DAMMIT, I WAS ALREADY IN PLACE.

He pushed me, and I only aimed it his way, I was not TRYING to hit him in the face

What do you mean just let it go, I would if folk would let me

I hear about my past actions daily, I wish all of they asses would just forget me

I put that CD back in its spot, I never walked out of the store, I would not have gotten far

I was only riding with those dudes, I did not help them break into those cars,

Yea, that drag from the Mary J. got into my blood, but I never took a puff

OK, OK, PLEASE STOP…. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH

I know, it is my responsibility to change if I want change, and change is my main option

My past will never go away, it will never be forgotten

This is a new day of living and this is a different me

Running up in a sexy fine chic just because, no longer is that me

Running with the goons at night, no longer is that me………

Smoking that Dro is long gone, no longer is that me….

My lonely days of solitude, no longer is that me…

Being just so damn rude, no longer is that “totally” me… iamjustsaying…

Being over sensitive, upset for no reason, no longer is that me…

I must show that I am capable of being responsible and disciplined if I am to be the man that I am trying to be

There are many who act as if they are NOT watching me….

I must stand as a man, so please understand that this new way of living is different for me..

it was me I admit it, now leave me the hell alone, and let me now be who God has called me to be….