This Easter Weekend................

Easter weekend was pretty good for me, even though i had a boil on my ass
it is actually one of the better weekends that i think i have had
Saturday i went to a bday party, and saw family i had not seen in a while
I saw this dude that i wanted to run over him with my truck, then back back over him with a smile
ate some really good food, talked loud for a minute, but i mostly sat still as much as i could
i mean, i had to keep moving instead of sitting on that hard wood
i was scooting from left to right in the seat, trying to find a spot i could put on a good front
so i continued to walk from the front to the back yard, yet trying to keep from looking like a dunse
so i danced to the old school music they would play while moving on my way.
This is pain i have never had nor will i wish on anyone, in no time of day
i am getting ready to leave and head around the corner to a friend of mine house
hung out with them that night doing the Michael Jackson on WII, and i had fun up until i left out
Easter Sunday was cool, went to a buddies church, then left and hung out with my fam.
i love those people, then i left from there, a tired and happy man.
"xpressurself"

i really just don't know.......

i find myself in a place that i do not kno
this should feel familiar, but it just dont
trying to figure out if i should come or go
i really just do not kno

my first thought is to go with the flow
live my life as it is, joining in  with the show
this is emergency status right now, my heart is about to blow
i really just do not know

i have seen this scenery, but i realize it was only a show
less the cameras, and red tape, and video
not even any drama, but i am still wondering if i am capable to love again and let it show
i really just do not kno

but because it feels so good, i do not want to let it go
i feel like i am moving forward andif anyone wants to know
no i have never been in this atmosphere, i can get use to it though
dealing with the knowledge of the past, i promised to let it go
and i will, but i need time to do this, and a little patience, will i go all the way, i am sure i am, but how long will it take, i really just dont know