do not feel bad for me... not for everyone....

i am living in a society where a man and a woman
is affected by the decision of facing another person of color
regardless if i am a black man.
a white person has to make a conscience decision to
treat a person of another race as they treat their own
and defend themselves to let the other race believe they actually understand
i have been given this line of bullshit, "i do not care what race you are, when i
see you, i do not see color"
you are just a brother from another mother.
and i have to make the choice to be either an asshole and ask
the question "so you are telling me that you are color blind"
and they say, OOOHHH NNNOOO, I SEE JUST FINE
then how are you gonna tell me that you do not see color
when you see me. I am a 230lb. brown skinned male. if you do nto see
 color, what do you see
because obviously you are not looking at me.

I call myself a ni$$a, because that is what i choose to do.
if you do not see color, then i am taking it, this is what you see
the nigga in me
i call myself a ni$$a because i will never run from what my ancestors
had to deal with when they dealt with your lying ass..  predator kinsmen
notice what i did not say..... um hm...
i have had to face this life all my life
dealing with you making me think you are not what you really are
if you really did not see color, that would not even be a damn issue
ignorance has made a crown around you
so... YES... i call myself a ni$$a because that is what i am
to all of you that do not see "color"
that means you are colorblind, so to help you out
here it is... i am a black ni$$a.... guilty
i am what God made, so i choose to be nothing different, but come on and ride with me
and do not feel bad for me,, because of what you are already thinking about me 
but i will break you if it ever comes out of your mouth.... so silence it conscientiously 
"xpressurself"