Not my fight.......

I stand as a man, broken
standing on the lines waiting for battle, bold,
My weapon in my hand, i am holding

waiting for the moment when my inner beast is unleashed
Thanks to God, i have been on a tight leash
but, i feel he is waiting for me to make sure i am ready, so I can stand on my own feet

 well, that moment is here, and I am ready to stand
as a man, I stand, fighting on God's given land
broken, with my heart beating the beat of Hallelujah, praising HIM in advance

(just like said Tupac said)
"We bomb first when we ride
Please, reconsider before you die
We ain't even come to hurt nobody tonight
But it's my life or your life, and I'mma bomb first"

ready to shoot with my pistol speaker
be careful, because when it is unloaded it is like a furnace heater
With my conglomerate behind me, Mathew, Mark, Luke, John,
and my Lieutenant Peter

i have been given my opportunity to strike
my own has declared war against me,
coming from the left and the right
but, God told me and my crew, HOLD ONTO MY WORD,
AND BUT YE STILL, FOR THIS IS MY BATTLE TO FIGHT

For HE knew we had no might against vast enemy, surrounding us around  front to the back
and they were preparing themselves, getting ready for the attack
TAKE YOUR POSITIONS, STANDING FIRM, FEAR NOT FOR WHAT YOU LACK

WHEN I TELL YOU, MARCH DOWN AGAINST THEM
THEY WILL BE COMING AROUND THE MOUNTAIN OF ZIZ
AND MY DELIVERANCE IS SUFFICIENT ENOUGH TO GET THEM

so we did as instructed, stood firm as we were told
ready to move, attitudes bold
fire in our eyes, breathing hell's fire, hearts cold

My hand still on my weapon, my Bible, my sword
anxious, though i knew i did not have to really deal with the hoard
days later, the battle has ended, what a mighty God i serve, My God, I thank you
 My Lord
"xpressurself"

It's only you............

I love this woman, truly I do

but i really just don't get it

With blood, sweat, and tears i try my best

and my best has gotten US to this

This is my Queen, my soul, my air

and i just encouraged her to leave

Was it my OWN ambitions that drove her away

so I could be what I wanted to be

Test me, LORD, and try me,

 examine my heart and my mind

For I will be mindful of you and your

unfailing love, I promise to get it right this time

i want her back, i need her back

Father please give me what it is I lack

I am nothing without my air, and i

need my breath back

TDM.

Cold and Damaged

I didn’t lose it

It is not lost, I still carry it around with me

I damaged it

I allowed things to go in a direction that things should not be

This shit hurts

Although I have played big parts in it’s destruction

This shit hurts

Just like a vice grip squeezing my life tight, my insides are malfunctioned

Ice has no chill

My heart has been chilled, not even the fire from hell could melt it

Just a matter of time

Yea, easier said than done, obviously this shit right here, you have never felt it

I didn’t lose

It is not lost, I still carry it around with me

But, whats wrong with me

No matter what  I do, or how good I treat them, the same outcome, I need refuge to take me

A Good guy

A good guy gone bad, I call it like I see it

Confused as hell

What was it this time, too nice, not considerate enough, did I say something and you not believe it

I did not lose it

It is not lost, I just put that bitch up, I still carry it around with me

M.I.A.

Am I really that bad to where they really just do not want stick around with me?

“xpressurself”