From The Hands of The Potter ( Jer. 18:4)

I stood as a man with all that i needed, and wanted for a season of my life
I had a vehicle, house, money out the ass, even blessed with a beautiful wife
I stood as a man with nothing to want for, but much more would really not hurt
But i was not a greedy man, so please understand i took life just as it was worth
I began to gain weight as a married man, and when people would come to ask me
They would say, marriage does you well dude, you getting kinda fat,  and i would always respond while rubbing my belly, this is not fat, this is what i called happy.
That was the life for me, me being the King in my castle, she the Queen in my life
wwwooowww, the whole thought of ME being married, ME having a wife
I can not explain what the deal was, or even how the end started to come nigh
Not sure when the sudden change in life occurred, but never thought to ask the question why?
We did our thing though, and kept it moving as we saw fit
O.M.G., we were loved together by others, but I guess the enemy did not like it
Nonetheless, at some point, it went on a spiral plunge to the worst, and life happened
Needless to say, this is not the way i ever thought nor imagined.
when the end happened, the tunnel to a new beginning was on the prowl
i did  something that tore me up, and made me realize that life is really not all that fowl
I fasted and prayed in the midst of being depressed, i asked God to show me my faults
Show me where I failed, and what should i have done, show me what foolishness, i myself, had brought
One thing I have learned, is ONLY ask God for what you really want him to do, and the other stuff, i should have let it go
There were several things about myself that i regret that i did not know
He knew what attracted me, and what caught my attention, and what i would open my mind to
I started looking at myself in the mirror almost daily,  and even though i had knowledge and wisdom, i REALLY had no clue
I had become broken to the thought that i was who i was, and what i had become
Why on earth did no one bring these things to my attention when i asked, where did this stuff come from
i had become marred, broken, twisted, confused, wanted to just say F-it to it all
Let me just isolate myself, and do what i do, and if i fall, then i just fall
I cried out to God, and i fussed at God, and i calmed down and asked him to make a new me
I told him i needed to become the man, leader, Husband that he wanted me to be.
I asked him for another opportunity, and each time i thought that time was here
He moved me around... and around... and around to another side of me that I did not want to hear.
So now i am here, at the spot that i am in, still being molded, and tested, but instead of switching vessels, he is only polishing this old ship i sailed up in.
He knows what he made, he knows who i am, so he kept those things that he had already put in place
That other MESS that i accumulated, he viewed as dirt, while I looked at MYSELF as a disgrace.
I can still see the hand of God placing his hands around me, applying pressure, with force squeezing me.... mending me.... stretching me.... still loving me.... showing me the light to when he will be relieving me
You see, he is not done with me yet, as a matter of fact, i am touched by the thought of being in the hands of the Potter's
i have been through the ice, of being cold and alone, while going through the heat, as the fire of life got hotter and hotter
i have been taken out of the fire, now i am being cooled, and as you know it takes time for the molding to dry
So, now comes the patience, as i sit and observe all the things i have learned on the way, with ALL FAITH that i have GOD RIGHT BY MY SIDE
the molding is not of a perfect appearance, but because of my tribulations, that appearance matters none
he has worked on the man, then on the leader, now the last one is in the making, and again, my life, will once again be begun.... Thanks to the hand of the Potter..... and He said it is good with Him...
"xpressurself"