I am that..... a Man.... (“DEPENDABILITY”)

I thought I was built to be the stronger person, the one that was there when no one else was

The person that kept things going even when it looked like all hope was lost

Through a lot of heartache, laughter, tears, and misunderstandings, I did what needed to be done

But then when things got entirely too demanding and the real battle had begun

I had thoughts of giving up, even when my stubborn ass was dead set on completing what I started

It is like I lost focus because of what was in front of me, while looking at everyone else being ice hearted

YOU stepped in and observed for a minute, YOU looked at the look on my face

Looking at the conditions of where I stood, standing in my own dry spirit trying to fill this dead space.

I still wanted to do it on my own, and I looked for ME to get it done

I did not need to be anyone’s charity case; I was the only male, my mom’s only son.

I mean, to prove I could do it, this was a role I needed, I could do it if I did nothing else

OH how proud I would make the others, if I did this by myself.

But, still YOU watched, YOU observed, YOU focused, never leaving me on my own

Although YOU never stepped in to save me, your presence was always known

After so long I finally got to the point where I was losing this crazy fight

Everything I was wanting to do by myself ended all at once, in one night

I got helpless, and felt like I was nothing because of the mistakes that I would make

Things I did, as my mother looked on, and after the first time I saw her tears; at that moment I had to break

I fell to myself, but did not look to myself, but I called YOU for the first time in this situation.

I called YOU, and almost before I started the first word to my last sentence, YOU had me in deep consecration

For the first time, I had a total mindset to depend on the one I should have called on from the jump

YOU showed up, and YOU showed out, and YOU made your statement, telling me enough was enough.

YOU made the issues go away, my confusion was at rest, YOU totally came through

And you did just what you always do when i finally decided to depend on YOU.
I am human indeed, I a your creation, I am stubbornness above what any other human can understand.
I never was able to get it right the first time, i am selfishness, I am that I am..... a man.... 

"xpressurself"