Father do you hear me?????????

Father can you hear me,
i whisper this prayer to you
not that i am trying to be silent
but my humility is overdue
i laid in bed alone last night
and i awakened covered with your spirit
i felt it dettaching itself from me
and it spoke, i just could not hear it
i felt it and sensed it speaking
but there was just no tone
immediately i blinked
but when my eyes reopened, he was gone
Father can you hear me
PLEASE tell me what does this mean
what was your spirit trying to tell me?
Father speak your word, direct my path,
send me your blessed word
is it because my sins have blocked my hearing
God have i finally gotten on your nerves?
My life has changed for the better
though it still seems i am still in this ditch
what on earth could it be
MY CHILD, NONE OF THAT IS IT.
I HAVE GIVEN YOU WHAT YOU HAVE ASKED
YET YOU STILL TRY TO REMAIN MILD AND MEEK
YOU HAVE HAD THE OPPORTUNITY FOR LOVE,
FINANCES TWEEKED, AND YOU HAVE EVEN ASKED ME TO TEACH YOU TO SPEAK
YET YOU TALK WHEN YOUR PURPOSE IS SERVED
AND YOU EVEN GET JIGGY WITH IT EVERY THEN AND NOW
YET YOU ARE STILL WAITING ON SOMETHING
AND I HAVE NO EARTHLY IDEA WHAT IT IS NOW
TAKE WHAT I HAVE GIVEN YOU FIRST
AND DO WHAT YOU NEED TO DO
THERE ARE MANY MORE THINGS THAT I HAVE
IN STORE JUST FOR YOU
 YOU HAVE SAID TO ME: "yes Lord,
Lord, I will certainly do your will"
THE IDEA SOUNDS REALLY GOOD DOESN'T IT
JUST SAYING IT SEEMS LIKE A THRILL
MAKE YOUR VOW, BUT KEEP YOUR VOW
AND MANY OTHER THINGS WILL BE ADDED TO  YOU
YOU KEEP ASKING ME DO I HEAR YOU,
JUST LIKE ALWAYS MY SON, INDEED,
 INDEED, INDEED I DO...
"xpressurself"