Tuesday, December 4, 2012

A BEAST....am I???




I AM A BEAST

UN-intentionally,

because you see, there is this abomination that dwells deep inside of me that consistently bubbles up from the gut of my belly, and turns the belly of my gut and out pours it through the clumsiness of my own mouth

and the more and more i ask God to control it, it persistently comes out.

I mean no harm by it. I mean to know me, is to get to know me

and if you just want to justify my actions by what makes you comfortable, just know that you can not control me

,and if you just want to judge me, then blow me

Just like each person that listens to this, or reads this, we all have a war that sits in our hearts that keeps us from being the best that we can be, and it is far more than what you can visually see,

OOOHHHH, it runs deeper.

I asked God in a previous poem to teach me to speak. Well he has perfected the things that i want to say, but in a conversation it gets a bit harder. I can be a bit sensitive when my intelligence is being tested.

OR, OR, OR,

when i am not getting the answers that i am looking for. I am not mad, nor am i in a mood. When i talk at times, that thing that spoke of earlier, you know that thing that sits in the belly of my gut, which turns the gut of my belly builds up, and amplifies. with more force than i planned. and it turns out that when i open my mouth, i turn........

INTO A BEAST.

but do not worry, you will know when i am mad.... but, for then, and for now, i am sorry. so, i will just be that thing that hurts people, but from a distance. in reality, i am just a cuddly teddy bear.
free hearted,
free spirited,
open minded,
and a bit bull headed,
but what do you expect. I am a Gemini.. a Gemini am I. complicated as phuck.

Mr. is not in today…. So you can either have this conversation with me, or wait until he is available, but as for this moment, to keep from upsetting anyone, i will just keep my silence.
just say good bye…
"xpressurself"

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