Tuesday, January 22, 2013

This Damn nervous Tick............

Every time I am not in your presence, but when I am speaking to you from a distance, I get this damn nervous tick
What is THIS shit?
I noticed that I can look you in your eyes, and have about as much control as I need
But how in the hell do I choke when I converse from a distance, and it’s the same each time I speak
There becomes this overflow of silliness, and clumsiness filling up the tip of my Medulla oblongata
Forcing me to uncontrollably regurgitate words and phrases, that I really don't gotta
hell after i got this chance to meet, i should have been able to settle myself down
but now i run off at the mouth, rambling and shit, making me look like a goofey clown
This is not me, and i will not claim this into the air
This burden of messing this up, i do not think i will be able to bare
My tongue has become a major issue with me now that I am kissing age 40
The best use of my tongue here lately is when I am in the middle of being naughty
My past has become a huge blockage, and I think this is part of defense mechanism, causing me to unintentionally suppress my baggage hiding my false morality
Now this is a question I have to face up to, because this is affecting my true reality
I am being given a chance to face up to my present, bringing birth to a future literally in my grasp
Will I mess this up with my being anxious, clumsy, and goofey, and speaking all out of term, yyeeaa, perhaps…
I have been told to calm down by many, even God has told me that this thing could be as fragile as a small kitten
I am needing to calm the hell down before I destroy this opportunity that I have been given
“Xpressurself”

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