Eloi Eloi lama sabachthani (encouraged from Mathew 27:46)

My God My God,
i ask of you, why have you walked away from me in the midst of all of my pain
i admit i am not perfect, and not always loyal just the same
i remember in your word where you say you will always forgive, and always be there for me
you ahve already told us that you knew us, and how much of a handful we are going to be
you have given me a task to do, and i have followed through, and still am i on Your path
are you upset with me because occassionally i vere away from the course that i have
i am exactly what you created and i stay 100 with you and my peers when they approach me
"Eloi Eloi lama sabachthani"

i see the goons from afar coming my way, and it looks like judgement in their eyes
My name has been crudified, and yet i keep it moving despite their lies
For your will, i allow myself to be spit on, kicked in the knees, and slapped in the face
i have turn the other cheek, so many times while ministering to my brothers and sisters, yet they still murder me in haste
for Goodness sake, i am drowning in my own tears, wallering in my own pity, while waiting for a response from you.i honestly have no idea what it is i am suppose to do
I ahve torn my clothes, with my face to the ground and i am still trying to see
"Eloi Eloi lama sabachthani"

There is only so much more i can take, but i keep it going on for the sake of kingdom building
every single day it seems that my life, i continue relieving.
my enemies are living a wonderful life, and i was thinking we were all to be treated equal.
Why do i feel like i am surviving in a 5 part movie sequel
complaining i am not doing, but this thing is getting harder my the day
i do not want to disrespect you by saying things the wrong way
Father show me your Glory so i know you have not walked away from me
"Eloi Eloi lama sabachthani"

MY CHILD, CALM DOWN, I WENT THROUGH THIS BEFORE, AND IT SEEMS THE RESULTS
WILL BE CLOSE TO THE SAME
IT IS HARD FOR A FATHER TO WATCH HIS CHILD GO DOWN SUFFERING FROM SO MUCH PAIN
THERE IS A MISSION THAT HAS TO BE DONE, BUT KNOW THAT I AM HERE MAKING SURE THINGS HAPPEN AS THEY SHOULD
COUNT IT ALL JOY WHEN GOING THROUGH DIVERS TEMPTATIONS, THE END OF THE STORY WILL BE VERY GOOD
I LOVE YOU MY CHILD, TRUST ME I WILL GIVE YOU AN OPPORTUNITY FOR YOUR REST TO BE TAKEN
AND NO MY CHILD, THERE IS NO NEED TO WORRY, YOU HAVE NOT BEEN FORSAKENED.
"xpressurself"

rain drops.....

it is raining outside,
 and i am planning on standing right in it

i want to feel what it is feeling,
and blend in with it

i wish to drown in its splendor,
until the moment God stops it

but i want to remain as a
perfect representation of it

when the sun comes out,
i want to be able to over power it

wash it away and remain as is,
 and not even worry about it

as long as the light is still out there,
i wish to constantly revisit it

why do we deserve the sunshine,
there aren't enough smiles and gratitude for it

all of the cries from the less fortunate,
yet our self righteous asses
continue to ignore it

there was a time when things that came from you heart,
everyone would sympathize with it

instead of the balance,
we only empathize with it

no love, no compassion, no encouragement,
we have pretty much done away with it

to be there for another individual,
our offspring seem to have never heard of it

my heart lessens lower, and lower as the raindrops fall
as they fall, and i want to stand right in it

the cries and the pain of my people are
drowning out the smiles of the blessed more fortunate,
i just want to feel the rain, and i
want to be that perfect representation of it

"xpressurself"