Eloi Eloi lama sabachthani (encouraged from Mathew 27:46)

My God My God,
i ask of you, why have you walked away from me in the midst of all of my pain
i admit i am not perfect, and not always loyal just the same
i remember in your word where you say you will always forgive, and always be there for me
you ahve already told us that you knew us, and how much of a handful we are going to be
you have given me a task to do, and i have followed through, and still am i on Your path
are you upset with me because occassionally i vere away from the course that i have
i am exactly what you created and i stay 100 with you and my peers when they approach me
"Eloi Eloi lama sabachthani"

i see the goons from afar coming my way, and it looks like judgement in their eyes
My name has been crudified, and yet i keep it moving despite their lies
For your will, i allow myself to be spit on, kicked in the knees, and slapped in the face
i have turn the other cheek, so many times while ministering to my brothers and sisters, yet they still murder me in haste
for Goodness sake, i am drowning in my own tears, wallering in my own pity, while waiting for a response from you.i honestly have no idea what it is i am suppose to do
I ahve torn my clothes, with my face to the ground and i am still trying to see
"Eloi Eloi lama sabachthani"

There is only so much more i can take, but i keep it going on for the sake of kingdom building
every single day it seems that my life, i continue relieving.
my enemies are living a wonderful life, and i was thinking we were all to be treated equal.
Why do i feel like i am surviving in a 5 part movie sequel
complaining i am not doing, but this thing is getting harder my the day
i do not want to disrespect you by saying things the wrong way
Father show me your Glory so i know you have not walked away from me
"Eloi Eloi lama sabachthani"

MY CHILD, CALM DOWN, I WENT THROUGH THIS BEFORE, AND IT SEEMS THE RESULTS
WILL BE CLOSE TO THE SAME
IT IS HARD FOR A FATHER TO WATCH HIS CHILD GO DOWN SUFFERING FROM SO MUCH PAIN
THERE IS A MISSION THAT HAS TO BE DONE, BUT KNOW THAT I AM HERE MAKING SURE THINGS HAPPEN AS THEY SHOULD
COUNT IT ALL JOY WHEN GOING THROUGH DIVERS TEMPTATIONS, THE END OF THE STORY WILL BE VERY GOOD
I LOVE YOU MY CHILD, TRUST ME I WILL GIVE YOU AN OPPORTUNITY FOR YOUR REST TO BE TAKEN
AND NO MY CHILD, THERE IS NO NEED TO WORRY, YOU HAVE NOT BEEN FORSAKENED.
"xpressurself"