Perception

exactly how many times do you have to be forgiven
for things that are totally out of your control
you can only hope that things fall in place.
you can only hope your plan unfolds
i mean, like really, no one wants to hurt, or to be hurt
no one wants to watch the person you love be dug into the dirt
to feel betrayed, or misunderstood
you know damn well things are innocent
and that your heart is good
 but explain it to me how it is you are not able to show them your truth
because of it you are not able to truly be you
so the lie that you end up telling is the lie
that you are happy with yourself.
and you ARE happy, but you are empty
you know the one thing that you think you need
is the thing that you truly need
but are afraid to move forward to be what, deep
in your soul you are needing to be
but you can not share that with the one that you love
because of the other foolishness you do in place of
what you are suppose to be doing because you are truly an idiot
though after it is presented, you admit it
and everything that you have built, and all that you are, becomes
null and void,
because although innocent, yet improper temptations
you did not avoid
all because it looked like something that it was not
now it is all fucked up,  i mean was messed up
in the eye of deception, but
no one ever thought about it's perceived perception
"xpressurself"

11/10/2014