Tuggle War

I had a dream last night...

I went into the bedroom

No intentions at all, except to lay down,

to rest my mind.... and t just chill out

The more I went into the room, there was this force

Pulling me.

At first I did not fight it

Because it had me. all of me,  and I think I liked it

I believe in the back of my mind I wanted it to control me,

But the shit just did not feel right

Especially at that time of night

So I started to resist, and the force would pull me a bit harder

I call myself trying to out think it, but it was just a bit smarter

Never in my life had I felt anything like this pure evil before

I was scared as hell, fighting the forces of hell,

That was trying to take me back with them to hell

My body was taken with several arms reaching out to me

With this invisible force, like a vacuum pulling, and pulling, and pulling me

I looked back at the corridor of my bedroom door, and there was my girl

Looking through my phone, saddened as if she had just lost her deceased grandmothers pair of pearls

And straight ahead of me was this woman I just met

She had been doing EVERYTHING that I had been pleading my girl to do for me, and had not done yet

This woman had been telling me that she needed me,

 my girl had been telling me the same the same stuff

This woman talks to me instead of at me,

and my girl is a little diamond in the rough
as much as i did for my girl, it never seemed to be enough
the few things i desired from her, she made it as if it was too much

This woman willingly encouraged me to do what my heart cries for

My girl has my heart, as well as a little bit more

Will I allow this force to pull me away, KNOWING this is not where I need to be

They say you cannot love two people at once, I wonder if they was including me.

“xpressurself”