"IAMNOTGOINGTOHELLFORYOU"

I am not what you are expecting me to be.
 I AM ME.
 I use to associate myself with goons of the street.
 Most of them are deceased.
 I had no choice but to better me. 
 I put a smile on my face,
just to keep you from running away from me. 
I have no reason to lie to you, 
for who are you to me. 
I ain’t going to hell for none of you. 
I have been looked at as being sneaky 
because my business is just that, 
MY phuk’n business. 
So from now on I will keep it locked up with me. 
Unfortunately the ones I loved, even to this day have placed a label on me.
 I will no longer justify anything else about me, 
and I can give a rats ass if you believe me, 
or if you say anything about me. 
After this last dramatization of my life,
 I care not who is with me or against me.
 i have never been so damned embarrassed in my life.
 I use to be an open book to those that inquired about me,
 I mean, I have no reason to lie to you,
 for all I can say is, I would like you to go to heaven with me, 
but I ain’t going to hell for none of you…
  you can say what you want about me,
 I will justify me no more. 
THIS IS MY WORD…..
 take me or leave me…
 or just stay the hell away and keep from around me.
 You choose not to give me the benefit of doubt, 
well, this means I did not mean a damn thing to you  anyway…
 it is what it is…
 just know, why would I have to lie….. 
about me…..
 I aint going to hell for none of you…. 
To know me, is to get to know me.
 Not see me, 
hear about me, and judge me.
 You can go to hell alone, 
because I will not lie to you about nothing,
 I will not judge you, 
and I will not hurt you (intentionally)….
 I mean some things happen that are not in my control.,
 but I am Heaven bound.
 It is not about me…
 but about God and kingdom building…..
 being there for others….
not about wondering who I am… 
hell if you want to know that…. 
Don't listen to things ABOUT me,  
 Just ask me, 
or hell for that matter, just WATCH me..….
 because... i'll be damned if i go to hell for any of you.................
UUuuuuhhhhhhmmmmmm…. 
Iamjustsaying…
"xpressurself"