I see no evil approaching

I see no evil approaching

Dooms day delivered devout days

determined

By divine dedication

That evil snuck up on you

when you least expected it

and it blinded you

the nay sayers was preaching

the words of salvation

all the while your oh so trusted

yay sayers, was jabbing you in the neck

with lies.

Torturing your entire being,

Yea, but you trusted them, and all the

While they are singing that same song….

Dooms day delivered devout days

determined

By divine dedication

Yet you TRUSTED them

As they stood in your face

Smiling with those wooden teeth

While sister Sally came up from behind you

She covered your eyes from behind

And placed your mind in darkness

In order for you to see the light.

And everyone that was in

Front of you disappeared….

And you walked onward

Pass all of them.

And with a clear conscience

“xpressurself”

self- preservation

1 Peter 5:10
¹⁰ And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.

I lay the bricks down brick by brick
making sure I level my foundation, inch by inch
keeping an eye on what I originally set in my way
though I hear and see them from afar away
step by step, I march on in the toughest direction
where I thought love was an ally, yet it holds the strongest subjection
The heart bears many powers, as well as weaknesses
failing us daily, through the same sequences
It blinds our minds, with false hopes and expectations
those prophetic affirmations adds power to already established frustrations
yes, the heart lies to us all, preparing us for that blow to the ground
MOST times we are not aware until the gunfire sounds
piercing through the soul, killing all hope for redemption
self preservation has become a way of living, we gotta pay close attention
The mind tells us the truth, but because of our hearts misguidance
The mind is forced to freeze the heart, and make it sit silent
Who else will protect us from ourselves and others
We witness daily all that is uttered
the protection of oneself from harm or death
a basic instinct that we all have, but we always seem to give that
power to everyone else
Well, the beast within is stronger than the beast I have been molded to be
The light that shines through me forces my deep rooted glory to be free
I love my brothers and sisters, I just love me that much more
God shows me daily that my life has so much in store
"xpressurself"

The Other Approach"

Isaiah 43:25

 “I, even I, am He that blotteth out thy transgressions for Mine own sake, and will not remember thy sins.

Why can’t you just make up in your mind to just……….. love me

I am a sinner indeed, with still a lot to go through

Many things I have to deal with, as well as many things I still have to do

But, why can’t you just love me.

My past is this winding circle of emotions, that include laughs

Pain, depression, insomnia, rage and aggression on someone else’s behalf.

Yes, I have did my dirt, and I have paid my debt, well, I am paying my debt to God.

I mean, HE is the only on that I have to answer to.

No.. really true story….

HE alone has been there for me, with HIS grace showing HIS glory

We are suppose to be like HIM, I thought,

Yes……

Then why is it, you can’t just love me

Maybe if I fixed my face as someone closer to you, maybe it would be easy

I only want to love you, but what else do you need to see.

Are you not ready for the love I have, or are you just not ready for me

I feel I am being placed in purgatory, being punished from someone else’s mess

But, I refuse to remain in the hell hole, so maybe I will just suggest

Why don’t you just TRY to love me.

Consider me your neighbor, your friend, your brother from another mother.

You have hated me for far too long, but now I am needing you try a different approach, stand with me…. together

“xpressurself”

""Come out of the shadows""

I am asking you to come out of the shadows

And do not be afraid of me

I have exposed my inner wants and wishes

In hopes you would accept me

But you are hiding in the midst of the light

In plain sight

No picky boo babe, reveal yourself, no games intended,

I would really rather not fight

Come out of the midst of the shadows, please

Do not be afraid of me

God has been my power, my sun, I am needing you

To share those rays with me

Your past has messed up the purist

Part of you

Your innocence has definitely been damaged

And I've no idea what else to do

Yyeeaa, yyeeaa, I know, I know,

Patience is not a friend of mine

I am waiting because I want to, and I want you

And I am sure things will end up fine

So for the moment I shall dance to the

Sound of your tune as if the melody was

Played by a piano

So from  Allegro, to allargando, fully agitato…..

Then a pleasing Affettuoso

I will dance in the light waiting for you to dance with me

Beating out the darkness in your heart, even if in the rain when It lands on me

But I beg of you to please come out of the shadows

And do not be afraid of me…

“UtterlySpeaking”
#snc

Love Don't Last Always

love don't always

Look the same when you actually open your eyes

Its real

And most of the time, you really are not sure if you really like the way it feels

There are layers in this shit

And when you start shedding, that is when you really know you have been hit

It’s Draining, aching,

Maintaining the very last piece of that old piece of shit you that is remaining

Yes it taste good when you are asleep

When your eyes are closed, you keep a smile on your face, and it stays soul deep

That fine iron that has been keeping you protected for so many years.

I have learned that love works as that machine that purifies, as well as sharpens those hard

To reach tears

I guess you can call me a gluten for punishment, because I love to walk with my eyes open

Because Love don’t always adorn us like we are always hoping.

That thang there can tear you up and spit you out

And can give 2 shits about how you feel.

To me that is the most precious thing in the world, because

Unlike people,

Love is always real.

“xpressurself”

"costly"

Many things happen both planned and unexpectedly

Many times we look for a connection by physical chemistry, especially

When we are able to look at the person,

Close our eyes, envisioning that person

Alone, just you and that person

And it ain’t no the PG13 version

The thoughts and mental stimulation

All of the touches and tingly sensations

After the first kiss of the lips

The two of you indulge in a dip

I mean, the body wants what the body wants

And you know you got it after the first response

When going into sexual meditation all things thought of are now lost

Sexual stimulation has you tingling and wet, but at what cost

Then you lay together, and just chill

Calm, quietly, and still

You desires, your chemistry, have been all you expected

Now what, so what’s next, you only thought about how you connected.

You have the perfect chemistry

But who are you to each other, have you any knowledge of each other’s identity

And no, it is not only about the female, you also have something lost

Sexual stimulation had you rock hard, but at what cost

To be continued…………….

“xpressurself”