TAKING BABY-STEPS (john 5:1-8)

look at all of these people, walking around, crossing over me
as if i am invisible and not where i need to be.
just like them, i need a blessing for this ailment that is within.
i been here so long daily, from day front to day end
waiting, twit-ling my fingers, hoping someone would just... lend me a helping hand.
taking me where i have always prayed to be, just to feel that feeling of being man
just to be a part of something, is this dream that i sought,
to move forward in this venture that makes me giddy from the mere thought
not necessarily for finances, but for the passion that lies in the midst.
I just have to get it on and running, but my motivation always becomes hidden
i become my own stumbling block, blocking myself from moving forward, because i realize i am unable to move,
i need assistance in getting to my miracle to do what i have to do
being able to stand on my own,
but until then I will waller alone
then here comes of a man, looking as if crossing me over is his main goal...
but instead he looked down at me and asked me " WILT THOU BE MADE WHOLE"
I looked up at him with that "woe is me" on my face,
each time i try to get to my dream, i am crossed over and then replaced
then the man just looked down and said, PICK UP YOUR MAT & MOVE...
TAKE NO EXTRA BUT WHAT I HAVE TOLD YOU, AND DO EXACTLY WHAT I TELL YOU TO DO
he then told me, GET UP, STAND TO YOUR FEET AND REGURGITATE THESE PATHETIC EXCUSES THAT YOU HAVE TAKEN IN
TAKE UP YOUR MAT, WHICH ARE ALL OF THOSE ITEMS YOU HAVE ACCUMULATED AND CARRY THEM TO THE TRASH BEND.
NOW BEFORE YOU HAVE ANY TIME TO OPEN YOUR MOUTH AND FOOLISHLY BEGAN TO TALK...............................
 
"WALK"
TELL NO ONE OF WHAT JUST HAPPENED, BECAUSE YOU JUST MAY DAMAGE YOURSELF BY TELLING SOMEONE ELSE YOUR PLANS

AND THEY JUST MAY BE USED AGAINST YOU, AND YOUR DREAMS COULD END UP IN ANOTHER S HANDS
NOW MOVE AS I TELL YOU, YOU CAN NOT DO ALL OF THIS TOO FAST
MOVING FORWARD IS REMEMBERING,  BUT NOT DWELLING ON YOUR PAST
NOW REMEMBER THAT YOU WAS IN A STATE OF LAZINESS, WHICH IS ALL THAT REALLY WAS
YOU SAT THERE FOR SO LONG WAITING ON SOMEONE ELSE TO DO WHAT YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN DOING, BUT MY FRIEND, THAT IS NOW ALL ABUZZ
NOW YOU HAVE TAKEN UP YOUR MAT, BUT THAT WAS ONLY THE FIRST STEP
THE NEXT ONE IS TO KEEP IT POPPING, BUT LOOK FOR YOUR HEAVENLY FATHER, AND NO OTHER BEING FOR HELP
WHEN YOU FALL I WILL LIFT YOU, WHEN YOU BECOME WEAK, I WILL GIVE YOU STRENGTH.
I AM HE THAT CAN GET YOU TO MY FATHER. I AM HE THAT WAS SENT
THE TRUTH OF THE MATTER IS YOU HAVE ALL THAT YOU NEED WITHIN YOU, YOU NEED NOTHING ELSE
ALL I AM SAYING TO YOU, IS JUST KEEP IT MOVING, BUT DO NOT RUSH, FOR THIS IS YOUR BEGINNING, JUST TAKE BABYSTEPS...
"xpressurself"