YOU ARE SSSSOOOOO BEAUTIFULLLLLLLL ***********^^^^^^^^^*********

There is an untold story that has been exposed.
Yes exposed.
You are telling the story, i am only speaking it into existence.
You were born a not so attractive person.
Who told you that you were not attractive, society?
You have big lips, a dark colored complexion. overweight. hair a little bit more coarse than you would like.
RIGHT???
You grew up with that ugly duckling syndrome, and you took that to heart
you were continually walked on and looked over because you were never taught how to look to part
the things you did, it was because that was what you were taught to do
i sit and wonder what would have happened if someone simply told you;

that YOU ARE SSSOOO BEAUTIFUL, AND I LOVE YOU....

 how much would you take as true.
But you have gotten so use to:
HOW DUMB ARE  YOU/
HOW STUPID ARE YOU/
 HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO SAY THIS AND THAT TO YOU/
GET AWAY FROM ME WITH YOUR UGLY ASS/
GO DO WHAT I ASKED YOU TO DO WITH YOUR UGLY ASS/
GO GET IN THE BED, AND ASSUME THE POSITION, FACE DOWN WITH YOUR DAMN UGLY ASS.
and because of the way you have grown up, and the dumb shit you were taught, you do it without question.
people look at you and make their own judgements, without giving you a chance to sit on the stand and give your confession.

Life means: the period of existence/....
the quality that distinguishes a vital and functional being from a dead body

those negative vibes, and dangerous words has pretty much destroyed your inner self, and caused you to believe that you are nothing. But by the power invested in me, i speak  LIFE inside of you. YOU ARE SSSSOOOO BEAUTIFUL... 

Beautiful means:

1. Pleasing the senses or mind tastefully.
2. Of a very high standard; excellent.

Need I say more, now look in the mirror, clean your face,
do something with your hair, put those wild hairs in place
whatever your pleasure is. get that crust from between your eyes,
now pop your damn collars........and dismiss all those damn lies

now stand tall and firm with me, and take this gift of Life that i offer
lets speak this...... into existence.... to each other...

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL....  you are the epidemy of radiant. To hell with what you have been told. your life has been sold for the freedom of you knowing that you are not only beautiful, but you are royalty. You have been placed in the royal hood of Jesus Christ, for he has payed the  ultimate price.
He said that he did not come to grant you death, but that you shall abundantly have life....
he came to save us all from the outrageous lies, deceit, and the evil that is that Satan deems so useful
in the destruction of our own lives, but just remember God sees us as a reflection of him, and HE thinks YOU ARE SSSOOO BEAUTIFUL....
"xpressurself"

A BEAST....am I???

I AM A BEAST

UN-intentionally,

because you see, there is this abomination that dwells deep inside of me that consistently bubbles up from the gut of my belly, and turns the belly of my gut and out pours it through the clumsiness of my own mouth

and the more and more i ask God to control it, it persistently comes out.

I mean no harm by it. I mean to know me, is to get to know me

and if you just want to justify my actions by what makes you comfortable, just know that you can not control me

,and if you just want to judge me, then blow me

Just like each person that listens to this, or reads this, we all have a war that sits in our hearts that keeps us from being the best that we can be, and it is far more than what you can visually see,

OOOHHHH, it runs deeper.

I asked God in a previous poem to teach me to speak. Well he has perfected the things that i want to say, but in a conversation it gets a bit harder. I can be a bit sensitive when my intelligence is being tested.

OR, OR, OR,

when i am not getting the answers that i am looking for. I am not mad, nor am i in a mood. When i talk at times, that thing that spoke of earlier, you know that thing that sits in the belly of my gut, which turns the gut of my belly builds up, and amplifies. with more force than i planned. and it turns out that when i open my mouth, i turn........

INTO A BEAST.

but do not worry, you will know when i am mad.... but, for then, and for now, i am sorry. so, i will just be that thing that hurts people, but from a distance. in reality, i am just a cuddly teddy bear.
free hearted,
free spirited,
open minded,
and a bit bull headed,
but what do you expect. I am a Gemini.. a Gemini am I. complicated as phuck.

Mr. is not in today…. So you can either have this conversation with me, or wait until he is available, but as for this moment, to keep from upsetting anyone, i will just keep my silence.
just say good bye…
"xpressurself"

My environment... back in the day....

 progression....... A movement or development toward a destination or a more advanced state, esp. gradually or in stages

 Forward or onward movement toward a destination

 Advance or development toward a better, more complete, or more modern condition

or to some it up, to keep it moving.

We have been conditioned to believe that we are a product of our environment. Where ever we have so happened to migrate and live for a certain period of time, that is the mindstate that we are to carry
Though our standards and conditions vary
My hood niggas feel as if, if we stay in the hood, or even just hang in the hood for a period of time, because of the dudes you have just spent your time with, have you thinking that it is good to be down in the hood.
and if you are not dealing with the best of the best, you are a snithch or a hoe ass nigga, and you are up to no good.
now it is easy for you to do because your mom is working a job that is not paying much of anything, and you punk ass dad is either cracked up, hoing in the streets, or just left you dry.
either you never met him at birth, or he just up and said good by
so a family you seek, and now a family you got, now someone now has your back
someone will look out for you as you make a little change to help around the house, yyyeeeaaaa, no now you got that
You see i was a part of the hood where we dealt the crack rock out of a little match box and put it in our pocket
we  did that for a minute until the cops got hip to those shenanigans, so we either had get smarter, or we had to stop it.
so instead of one matchbox, we started carrying around two
one box would be smooth on the side, and the otherone full of matches would have to be new
so if we were caught, we had a Velcro pocket and we would open that pocket, and matchbox would drop
oh, we also had on 2 pair of pants sowed to the other pair, and the leg of the pants would be placed in our sock
you see, at that time i use to think that progression was being able to come up with a newer and better idea, to keep from being stuck in one place
not the case
progression is a state of mind that keeps a person from staying in one place, but knowing that our minds are open enough that when we say i can do anything, that spirit of God that already dwells in us will be free enough to make that thought, become an actual verb ( action) this is called faith
it did not become understood until my boy, standing around at a local skating ring was shot literally right beside me
whose to say that bullet was not suppose to be named and dated for me
sometimes that is what it takes for us Niggas to get away from that very thing that holds us back
When will we learn that God is looking out for HIS own. and is waiting to show us that there is always something better us, through HIM that was sent
and it is time for our lives to start being more purposely spent.
through progression......
"xpressurself"

Even an exotic rose has thorns

Even an exotic rose has thorns

(from the eyes of the flower)

When I first saw you, I saw you as you were,  raw, uncut, totally in your element

I was in the process of trying to blossom, while my heart was collecting on a settlement

But you caught me and you drew me in, and it seems as if there was no escape

I allowed you to take me in, and I broke every rule that I set for myself

I was not going to be pulled in by no one else

well i allowed you, unintentionally, and you have consumed me with your presence

hoping for a quick release, but instead you gave me waterfalls from constant erect injections

but the waterfalls after waterfalls, continued to rise

not once, but two times, that tsunami flooded through my eyes

as you continually injected me the river from my eyes never stopped

though i got what i asked for, I did not expect what i got

as the river ran, pouring, i was suddenly held that much tighter

your eyes began to drizzle, a little, and our future SEEMED that much brighter

i guess after too long, while i continued to blossom, i think you handled me a bit unaware

i informed you how to treat me, and you did for a minute, then things just became for the both of us, just a bit unfair

i had to remind you that i am yet a rose, and you pointed to my pain

i have thorns on my outer body, and you touch them all the same

i have been exposed to you, so you were aware, but seems as if you have forgotten

and as much as i want to just be blown away, you have this damn hold on me as if my life is yours to own.... well no...

the truth of the matter is, you have placed a permanent tattoo on my heart, but my soul has been scorned

you would always consider me your exotic rose, but even an exotic rose has thorns......
"xpressurself"

sovereign protection...psalms 105

He chastised me when he needed to,
yet he carried me through my mess
even when the unexpected, and totally out of my control came up,
he realized that i am only flesh
he made me a promise, and he stated
that he will stick to it to a T...
and he never held me to anything, except to
be who i said i am going to be
he said,

"UNTO YOU I GIVE, AND NO MAN
SHALL I ALLOW TO TAKE IT AWAY"
YOU WILL BE BLESSED WITH LAND, WISDOM, MANNA,
WHILE MILK AND HONEY IS DELIVERED TO YOU ON A TRAY.
WHEN YOU ARE BUT A FEW, AND YOUR ENEMIES SURROUND YOU
FROM THE ENDS OF THE EARTH
YOU WENT FROM NATION, TO NATION,
EVEN WHEN I TOLD YOU TO GO HERE FIRST
I SUFFERED NO MAN TO DO YOU WRONG,AND 
REPROVED KINGS FOR THEIR SAKE,
WHEN YOU WERE WEAK IN THE PRESENCE OF OTHERS,
STILL YOUR LIVES THEY DID NOT TAKE
YOU WERE WEAK AND I AM MIGHTY,
I GUIDED YOU THROUGH THE SUNSHINE, AND THE DEMANDING STORM
HEAR ME WHEN I SAY, NO ONE, AND I MEAN NO ONE
WILL TOUCH MY ANOINTED,
NOR DO ANY OF MY PROPHETS ANY HARM"
THE LORD thy God has spoken...
"xpressurself"

GUIDE ME O'....

"GUIDE ME O' THOU GREAT JEHOVAH. PILGRIM THROUGH THIS BARREN LAND"
we went out there with the best of intentions, thanking we's gonna go ret on across
we didn't count on all of those detours and road blocks made by deep ditches, and fallen trees sit'n in the middle of dem folks house
we walked for almost 40 days and 40 nights, we started thank'n we's lost
but we were hold'n on, yea yet hold'n on, with no plans of fall'n off

"I AM WEAK, BUT THOU ART MIGHTY. HOLD ME WITH THOU POWERFUL HAND"
Thou we are following Christ, we are human, and faint we start'n to grow
the elder folk that be traveling with us, dey strength start'n to get low
but not one time did they mumble a word, for dey knew where dey was bout to go
dey was hold'n on, yea yet hold'n on, keep'n up wit the flow

"BREAD OF HEAVEN, BREAD OF HEAVEN, FEED ME TIL I WANT NO MORE"
now here is where thangs started to feel a lil bit odd
folk were growing hungrier and hungrier, the mo down this path we trod
we had our believers, and unbelievers, and those on lookers being real fraud
 the elderly was our examples, for dey was content only filled with a word from God

"OPEN WIDE THOU CRYSTAL FOUNTAIN, WHENST THOU HEALING WATER FLOW"
there was a great transformation taking over the land, and at first we did not understand
so much power was being past through one another, woman to woman, man to man
this journey was almost behind us, and we found strength through leaning on each other, and by the holding of hands
we held on, an still yet hold'n on, thanx to our Saviour for keep'n us focused on God's plan...
"xpressurself"

A Letter To my T- Jone

I ought to be a little subtle about how things actually went down.

Whether you were in the house fuss'n or if we were outside wrestling outside on the ground.

Angela and Melissa could not understand how we said some of the things to each 
other that we would say.

How we acted towards each other and why you would respond in such a way.

At the time they did not realize what we had actually been through.

How at times I would not eat just so you would be able to.

How you sat and looked at the look on my face when I had things taken away from me.

You felt what I felt and even saw things that I really could not see.

I really can not say that I learned affection from you but love I saw a lot.

I was given from God a gift that so many people never got.

I recv’d time, love, respect, an occasional beating when deserved.

A lesson from you I did not get from my dad, which was important for me to learn.

While we were home alone we had more time to understand each other.

I am proud to say you were more than mom, we were like sister and brother.

From showing me how to shake a man’s hand, to how I should treat my wife.

I have to thank God for Mother’s Day and for having you in my life.

"xpressurself"

Old Man Rivers.....

It is said that you can learn a lot by those that do not say a word

I heard that and did not understand that, in fact I’m thinking that’s absurd.

me being a man of god, my first thought was that would mean I’m assuming the facts.

God would say I am judging another and, words can not be taken back.

My thoughts of this changed when I had a little talk.

this being that some called "OLD MAN RIVERS", as I went for a lil walk.

Old Man Rivers is a wise old goat, and I know he is only bluffing.

" I know you know, that I know you know something", but old man rivers says nothing.

I just watch him as he moves with grace as he connects with madam ocean.

spreading all of that information, thinking he can keep it from me.

well, how does he get that notion?

come on old man rivers, you have been here since the beginning of time.

then I thought about what old folks use to say, close your mouth and open your eyes.

so I’m watching old man rivers amazed at how he moves.

no, I am not funny, just amazed at the age and he is still able to grove.

so I began to walk with the old man, and talking and my mouth dropped by what was said.

listening and all I could do was just, shake my head.

he said, "I've been spit on and dumped on while being forced to hide many ruins.

not too many people have learned how to talk to me in the way that you are doin.

it is impossible for any man to get too deep in my soul and expect to continue to live.

so you do not ever need to try, this is the advice I give.

My soul carries many secrets and my body and mind has memories you could never imagine true.

These things you hear from me, until the end of your earthly and spiritual life must stay with you.

I am among the only being that has ever seen the glory of God and still managed to stay alive.

for I am blessed as well as cursed, but one day I too will rise.

I was there when his head was dipped; heck it was I that God entrusted to wash his head.

I share with my brother, as he sits in the graveyard; we hold the bodies of the dead.

We have witnessed many things I have seen many things, I have heard many things

I have held on to many things, and I have kept quiet to many things.

I tell you this too, there have been times while minding my own business alone.

Along comes your young lovey dovey couples’ wanting to get it on.

Some just want a listening ear, at times I am your best shrink.

As much information that I have, I have no time to think".

Before I knew it,  hrs. had passed and all that I heard will take a lifetime to process it all.

Even if I tried to forget it, I would automatically recall.

I told old man rivers, I would see him later; as he rolled away, he never responded.

for hrs. I feel as if we really, really bonded.
so if you ever come across Old Man Rivers, this was an experience thhat was worth the time
Walk beside him and listen to his life, he certain will not mind
"xpressurself"

My 3 first Loves...

IN MEMORY CLEARLY OF MY 1ST LOVES, I WILL START FROM NUMBER 3.

BASIC EVENTS, THOUGH NOT IN DETAIL ON HOW A FEW THINGS WENT DOWN WITH ME.

NUMBER 3): SUZY Q, I WILL NOT PONDER ON WHAT WAS LOST, BUT WHAT IT WAS THAT I HAD.

WHAT CAN I SAY, I MADE HER LEAVE, AND SHE LEFT, THERE IS NOT TOO MUCH MORE TO ADD.

I WAS ALWAYS THERE, BUT I WAS NEVER AROUND WHEN I NEEDED TO BE.

I PRAYED AFTER SHE LEFT, AND GOD DEALT WITH ME WHICH FORCED ME TO MY KNEES.

I WENT AWAY TO ANOTHER STATE, WHERE THERE WAS NOT TOO MUCH LUST.

WHERE I LEARNED WHERE I NEEDED TO PUT MORE OF MY TRUST.

WHEN I CRIED, I WOULD WRITE AND MY SOUL WOULD SIGH.

IN AN INSTANT OF RELIEF I WOULD QUICKLY STOP MY CRY.

NUMBER 2): MY GIFT IS NOT SPEAKING, OR TEACHING, BUT MY GIFT IS _EXPRESSION

IT COULD BE REMEMBERING A SCRIPT, WRITING A LETTER, BUT IT IS LIKE MY SOUL WOULD GIVE A CONFESSION.

I HAVE WRITTEN MYSELF HAPPY, AND I HAVE WRITTEN MYSELF TO THE TRUTH.

I HAVE WRITTEN MYSELF TO SLEEP AND I HAVE WRITTEN MYSELF TO A BOTTLE OF 151 PROOF.

I HAVE WOKE-UP FROM A DEEP SLEEP AND WRITTEN MYSELF INTO A DAYDREAM.

I HAVE WRITTEN MYSELF FROM KICKING SOMEONES ASS, OOOOOOO I HAD TO GET DOWN ON MY KNEES

I CAN WRITE WRITTEN WORDS THAT ARE WAITING TO WANDER.

I HAVE WRITTEN FOR SOMEONE ELSE TO BE OUT OF CONFUSION, SO THEY WOULD NOT BEGAN TO PONDER.

I HAVE WRITTEN SO MUCH FROM THINGS THAT I HAVE SEEN, AT THE SAME TIME NEVER FORGETTING THE SOURCE.

I HAVE BEEN ASKED, "DO I LOVE MY 1ST FIRST LOVE?"

WHO IS IT?

AND I WILL SAY IT IS GOD, AND DO I LOVE HIM? OF COURSE!

NUMBER 1): MY 1ST FIRST LOVE IS AND ALWAYS WILL BE OF ME, WITH ME, IN ME, FOR ME, BESIDE ME, SINCERLY.

HE PROMISED TO LOVE ME, TO PROTECT ME, TO COMFORT ME, TO CHASTISE ME, TO LISTEN TO ME, TO GUIDE ME, FOR ETERNITY.

THERE WAS A TIME WHERE MY FIRST LOVE SENT ME IN THE MIDST OF WOLVES, AND HE SIMPLY TOLD ME TO STAND.

IF I NEEDED ADVICE FOR ANY SITUATION, HE COMMANDED ME TO NEVER PUT MY TRUST IN MAN.

SO TO GOD BE THE GLORY, THE STORY OF MY LIFE, TEACHER AND PROTECTOR OF MY SOUL.

THE CREATOR OF LIFE HAS GIVEN ME WISDOM AND A CHANCE AT LIFE UNTIL I GROW OLD.

HE HAS TAKEN ME THROUGH THINGS, NOT BEING MEAN, BUT TO TEACH ME HOW TO WAIT FOR WHAT HE HAS IN STORE FOR ME.

TO GOD BE THE GLORY AND THANK YOU FOR MY 3 FIRST LOVES, AND THANK YOU FOR A CHANCE TO FINALLY SEE
"xpressurself"

My Imagination.... Running Away.... ****************

I just went blank, and my mind just wandered aimlessly

Now there I go just walking around, looking around vagrantly

As I imagine you in this palace surrounded by Kings and Queens

Dutchmen, princes, princesses, with you in between

Pampering you with the best of everything

As the best of the best, kneeled down on one knee before you to sing

The entire ballroom is piled high with material things

Gadgets and trinkets and cash and rings

Nice cars, with beautiful clothes, and many more fancy things

WHUP......, here comes someone else, I wonder, what did they bring

It is a man in a mask, with a slight slick lean

Dressed like a thug, but this dude was dressed clean

With a nice colorful shirt, cargo pants with a stitched out seem

Some nice canvas shoes, a baseball hat, and a watch without the bling

A clean cut fella, though his face looks mean

An outcast from the rest of royalty fling

He just stood to the side, and peeped the scene

His eyes caught the princess and their eyes did cling

Though he knew he was not royalty, and she was the daughter of the King

He was much too simple for her, and he was without a lot of things

In a sense he felt inferior, and he first thought to leave

But he was invited by the Prince, to which he refused to cleave

He stayed to himself through most of the scene

And at the right time, once again, he and the princess’s eyes did cling
what on earth could all of this mean
the princes, the princesses, the king, and the queen
AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH DAMMIT..... UUGH

I just went blank, and my mind just wandered aimlessly

Now there I go just walking around, looking around vagrantly

"xpressurself"
10/11/2012

"Utterly Speaking"

"The Assignment" (john 21))

This was the 3rd time Jesus had been out and about and revealed himself to those that walked with Him through his life
Peter being up to his old shenanigans, you would think he would have gotten an understanding after being questioned not once, but maybe twice
At the 3rd time, i think Jesus was trying to cover Peter after he denied 3 times; this is your chance to make me feel better.
just answer the questions that i ask, truthfully, and it would probably behoove Peter to make sure he can live up to his answers, to the letter.
but after he answered Jesus, Peter being Peter, either started smelling himself, or was just so nutty that he had the audacity to question Jesus about another of the brothers
John, the one that Jesus most loved was following them, now that should have never been a bother.
Peter turned and saw John following and he asked Jesus, what will you have this man do
This is the disciple that you loved the most, what things will he go through?
I can only imagine Jesus thinking to himself; what if he is the one that sits on the mountain and is placed into a sleep to be given the plan for the last days
he just may witness the coming of the greatest battle, as Gabriel swoops down, with the battle cry grabbing the trumpet in preperation as he plays.
i just may want him to write about everything that has been told to him, recording everything that i place before his eye
but Jesus simply replied, what if I wanted him to stay here, until the day that i come high.
whatever it is i have him to do, as long as he stays his course
tell me, tell me Peter, what concern is that of yours?
The others that were listening on, circulated this saying, saying "that disciple will not die"
"Jesus said it himself, we heard him" which was truly a flat out lie.
This is not what Jesus said, but in fact he said WHAT IF I HAVE HIM LIVE TIL I RETURN
see, even then the truth was twisted, when will we ever learn?
"xpressurself"

#IAMTHATIAM...

i was given a piece of someones mind concerning a certain poem that i wrote
they thought that by speaking to me, i would feel bad about it, but.... uuuhhhmmm.... nope
i think the way i think, i speak the way i speak, i i write what i have wrote
I tell you this, after i finished pissing on this person, they wish they would have just written me a note
This blog belongs to me, and these thoughts can not be tamed
if i really was an ass hole, this person would certainly be named
and this would not be a lie because this person recanted in the form of a text
copying and pasting would be no problem, i can give 2 shits about how much you are vexed
I am an expressionist, which means my opinion goes many places
PLUS i am a Gemini, i  change to many faces
i can easily go from 0-60 in .123 seconds
and from 60-0, in a litle longer time, I mean my tolerance has not yet been perfected....
#IAINTBEENSAVEDALLMYLIFE... IAMJUSTSAYING....
so to you and all of the others that feel like just because you have a mouth, that you can say what you want to say to me
the truth is you have the right to speak your mind, but be aware of the things i speak
God is still working on me, and he has given me a way to speak to make it tasteful, and more pleasant to HIS ears
but #IAINTBEENSAVEDALLMYLIFE, so you probably should have a bit of fear.
IAMTHATIAM, IBEWHOIBE, IAMTHEGOTDAMNMAN
go ahead and exercise your figure of speech, and i will exercise my right to dig into your ass, just as long as you understand
"xpressurself"

"REPROACH" ( 1Timothy 4)

There is this Spirit that has the ability to pass through without even allowing his presence to be known.
it has been fortold that we would take in this spirit and make it our own
it would force us to pay more attention to seduction and we would speak the doctrines of hell
through the hypocrisy of men, we would speak lies, and against the Bible we would be forced to rebel
Our conscience would be branded as if it was pressed with a hot iron
marriages would become broken, as well as forbidden the way God first planned, and same sex marriages would soon be desired
Instead of being thankful for the foods God granted us, we would abstain from eating what God himself said was good.
for who am i to blasphemy against what God has set aside for me, i wish to hell I would.
For all these things have been sanctified through the word of God; now we make this statement greater
The truth can once again be exposed, through the faith in prayer
bodily excercise is of some value, but Godliness has value in all things
For he has given us the promise of life which is existing now, including all this life has to bring
through Christ Jesus.
This is stated with faith and with all acceptance through the Book of Life
for to this end, we will all labor and suffer reproach as was done with Christ.
as believers we should teach these things, and command these things be done
teach and command these things, for in the kingdom of God, we are one
Just pay attention to your teachings, make sure your teachings of the doctrine are sound
We are all responsible for what comes from our mouths, and on lookers are all around
We should all be diligent in these things, giving ourselves wholly to all that seek
everyone that is near and far will pay close attention to our actions and to all the words we speak....
"xpressurself"

Diligence in Faith.... Through Christ... (2 Peter 1)

My God, My God....
 I have never experienced such earnest love, and patience from a single person, though
i yearn for this thing
man has become so pro_for myself, no other person is of no importance to them, then why should they be to me.
 Am I of this world, or of the spirit; who has control of my life?
is there no one else that is of any existence, capable of loving without there being a price?
 Who has given me the rights to all of his promises, with the key to escape corruption that has been trapped in this land of lust
the visual component that has been placed in my heart from birth is now apparent because i chose to start operating in Love
 concentrating on what God has done for me, as far as allowing HIS son to die for my sins
while understanding and practicing and living for knowledge; in knowledge, self control;, and in self control, patience; and in patience,   righteousness from my God
and in righteousness, brotherly affection; and in brotherly affection, love; now for the unsaved, this will certainly seem a bit odd
  but for this very reason, with diligence, adding to your faith, supply moral ethics.....
many people that read this, will probably not get this.
  We have been given freedom, which sometimes i think was a mistake from the beginning of time
God allowed man to take care of, and to control the things that HE has created, does that include this heart of mine?
 Well, it seems that those of a higher power feel that they are in charge of how i should feel, and how i should react
Though i am a Christian, i have not been saved all of my life, and by any means necessary my heart will remain protected, and my soul will stay intact...
 For i am persuaded God has my back, and through my Lord's strife
My Savior will diligently continue to push for my freedom, as long as my earnest faith strengthens from now until the rest of my life....
"xpressurself"

Press to the Mark.....(Hebrews 12:1-2)

Papa is pushing forward: onward go I, making a mark at the front of the line.

Who is walking right beside me, and willing to waste no time

There has been too much thinking about things to happen, and allowing time to rush on ahead

Standing still is not an option, moving onward is what I said

I give 2 ticks about the nay sayers watching on, speaking about not a thing

If you want to get on the band wagon, get a running start, and bring whatever you are gonna bring

I know what it is like having nothing, and waiting for others to come to my rescue

I have been to that place where I was just stuck in one place, with nothing: could not even afford a clue

Alone in life, watching others move on, asking for patience from others, not getting even a benefit of doubt

Being so stressed, that my own mojo left my side, and would not work with me, even he put me out
Many times our assignments are pushed to the side, and we allow distractions to take control
BUT WE FORGET WHO IS IN TOTAL CONTROL.....
Issues of life weigh heavy on our minds, while our souls are waiting for a release
Though the perfecter of my faith, the king of all kings, My Lord and saviour Jesus
has set a mark, with no practice, MUCH preperation, and lots for us to rehearse
For he said the one that come first is last, and the last one to finish would be first
so again i say, I am pushing forward, making a mark at the front of the line
My Lord, the Christ, the right hand of God is right beside me, wasting no time..... 
"xpressurself"