Bless Me iN

I offered you with the opportunity

To rid yourself of lies, disrespect, and mistrust

But your past continued, slapping me

Kicking me, spitting on me, telling me to just hush

I told you I wanted to unlock your heart

I told you I had the key

I knew I would have to take the slaps, the knots,

The tears, the fear, although none of it had to do with me

But you liked me, so you allowed your lock to

Dangle in front of my face

And I was willing to take the bullshit for so long,

Just so you could see I was not trying to play

Christ took that and more from the church,

He submitted his heart, and committed his life

I stand firm on my journey to get to you

Traveling through this storm with you to make you my wife

I know you are wide open, as well as fragile

So I stay cautious

Placing my pride to the side, my macho on lock

Completely  conscience of your status, “down dick, SIT yo ass down dick”

But then you grabbed dick, placed it inside of the window

To your soul,

 took the key from around my neck,

and unlocked your heart for me.

To Be Continued………………..

"xpressurself"

your truth....******************

At one time people listened to you

There was a significant amount of wisdom

that came from you

the elders would tell you all the time

that there was something about you

There was this light

People literally flocked around you

Just to be around you

But what happened to you

You allowed “LIFE” to happen

And you allowed it to take its toll.

You have let your past experiences

Define your present definition

This was not God’s intentions

Your pen had might, but now it is time

to go to that next level

speak what you are writing,

become that mighty vessel

worry not about who will and who will not listen

just speak your truth through your wisdom

“xpressurself”

"IAMNOTGOINGTOHELLFORYOU"

I am not what you are expecting me to be.
 I AM ME.
 I use to associate myself with goons of the street.
 Most of them are deceased.
 I had no choice but to better me. 
 I put a smile on my face,
just to keep you from running away from me. 
I have no reason to lie to you, 
for who are you to me. 
I ain’t going to hell for none of you. 
I have been looked at as being sneaky 
because my business is just that, 
MY phuk’n business. 
So from now on I will keep it locked up with me. 
Unfortunately the ones I loved, even to this day have placed a label on me.
 I will no longer justify anything else about me, 
and I can give a rats ass if you believe me, 
or if you say anything about me. 
After this last dramatization of my life,
 I care not who is with me or against me.
 i have never been so damned embarrassed in my life.
 I use to be an open book to those that inquired about me,
 I mean, I have no reason to lie to you,
 for all I can say is, I would like you to go to heaven with me, 
but I ain’t going to hell for none of you…
  you can say what you want about me,
 I will justify me no more. 
THIS IS MY WORD…..
 take me or leave me…
 or just stay the hell away and keep from around me.
 You choose not to give me the benefit of doubt, 
well, this means I did not mean a damn thing to you  anyway…
 it is what it is…
 just know, why would I have to lie….. 
about me…..
 I aint going to hell for none of you…. 
To know me, is to get to know me.
 Not see me, 
hear about me, and judge me.
 You can go to hell alone, 
because I will not lie to you about nothing,
 I will not judge you, 
and I will not hurt you (intentionally)….
 I mean some things happen that are not in my control.,
 but I am Heaven bound.
 It is not about me…
 but about God and kingdom building…..
 being there for others….
not about wondering who I am… 
hell if you want to know that…. 
Don't listen to things ABOUT me,  
 Just ask me, 
or hell for that matter, just WATCH me..….
 because... i'll be damned if i go to hell for any of you.................
UUuuuuhhhhhhmmmmmm…. 
Iamjustsaying…
"xpressurself"

teach me

I am a willing student. A pupil ready to please

I am an empty glass, praying that you would place a little

Bit of faith in me.

A 40 year old man all bushy eyed and eager

never too old to learn a few new things.

The excitement is grasping all that life has to bring

So teach me, 

I am a willing student

A bit political, sagacious, prudent

Now, I am knowledgeable as we speak of life,

But that is only speaking of my life experiences

Tell me what you like, what you love, let’s share

All of our likeness’ and differences

I am grown, no games, willing to express my weaknesses

No big metaphors, no signs of menopause, ready to take life serious

I do not want to control you, nor confuse you  with my thoughts

I come at you raw, and straight forward, my words will not put your mind in knots

I am open, and as I said before, I am an empty glass ready to be filled

Now I will beguile you, but nothing short of making you smile with a thrill

But that is all a part of the playing field, and that is me being real, with a slight tease

Hoping to intrigue you, 

come teach me, 

for I am a willing student, fervently ready to please

“xpressurself”

i ate it

I looked at how it looked as if it was melting.

As if the heat that it endured had it sweating

NOW, I am there licking my lips

Wanting to dip my tongue down the middle

But instead I teased it a bit, lightly bit around the tip

Then I would lick it just a little

Shorty was looking and licking her lips, then she

Bit her lip quenching her eyes watching me as I worked

I had my fingers in the way, as it continued dripping

Down across my finger tips and I caught it

Then I just put my mouth on it, still working my tongue

Making sure I covered all of it

I think I was more into it then I should have been,

I moved away from it, that cream was all around my chin

Shorty got wet fantasizing, and told me before she started

She better leave me alone

When she closed her eyes, she was imagining me eating her

The way I was eating that butter pecan 1 scoop ice cream cone

“xpressurself”

Do Not Lie to Me.....

All I ask is that you do not lie to me

I have a vivid understanding that I am

Nowhere close to perfect.

I am also subject to do something

So randomly horrible that by the end of the day

I could possibly be drowning in my own tears

Yet, life I will still not fear.

I know at times I may appear to have it all together

Even though the inside of me is twisting up

Just messed up. From the frigg’n floor up

Nonetheless, I am not fragile.

So if I do something that is not up to par

And I ask you to tell me…… then just tell me

Do not lie to me

I may write something that ONLY I understand

what it is saying, and you may be reading it like

WHAT…THE FFFFUUUU…………..

PLEASE just say…. Nothing, or ask me

WHAT THE FFFFUUUU…….????
Just the same, If I did not do anything wrong,

Do not say that I did just to make yourself

Feel like the bigger person.

I need you to understand, I have not been saved all my life

And you will hear from me

Life is to short for people to be fraud to another person

There is a difference between encouragement, and not wanting to hurt a person’s feelings

Lying to me, damages my feelings.

Even the brutal truth may hurt, and tears may actually form in my eyes

That is still more powerful than telling lies

The truth will make me look at myself, dry my tears, and do it differently

To better me

To strengthen me

To motivate and encourage me

So please, do not lie to me

“xpressurself”